Grrrrrrrrrr !!! Why now .........

[Kaysha40]

I'm feeling like a little girl right now, all I want to do is say arwwwww its not fair Christmas Eve and all I've done all day is wince with pain . My feet have not touched the floor today, so much to do.I've had to drag myself through every second with the endo pain at its worst. I couldn't take pain med well not any that even slightly touched it as my two little ones did not need me out of it. There all tucked up waiting for Santa so codeine for me now but really that doesn't even do the job. I know there are people with worse tonight, I truly do but I'm just feeling sad that every time there's something nice in my life it's there to rear its ugly head and spoil it. I really do try and fight it but as you all know it wears you down bit by bit. Even washing the pots and standing up straight was hurting so bad I slid down the cupboard and broke down.my body could not take anymore pain. I had to give in and that's what I hate that's what makes me go grrr I'm a strong women but the endo and adeno beat me down to tears and no tablet in the world helps. I have to then be cared for thank god for my partner, he has had to take over . He knows when I say that me done that it's really bad because I will try and push through. I know you all know how I feel and thank you for reading and I hope you all have a great Christmas xx I was hoping for a bailys but codeine and heat pad it is

Grr xx

[CT24]

I feel the same! I have no kids but have nieces and nephews so have had to be all Christmassy for them today. Far from in mood, since my op in September I have been worse then ever so I've been struggling to cope with every day stuff and at this time of year there is so much going on and I want to be happy but it's hard, unfortunately it is beating me at the moment. Feel I'm upset all the time and all I'm ever doing is waiting for the next appointment, which always takes forever!

[Kaysha40 in reply to CT24]

Thanks for taking the time to reply. It's so hard to feel happy when the pain and the hormones just take over everything. It's like standing at a window and looking in sometimes. I'm getting less and less times in the month when I feel just ok. Like now I'm getting ready to come on so really bad pain then when I'm on then pain and then the migraines put me in bed and that's going to be new year and we're going away it just ruins every nice thing I plan to do. And I truly here what you are saying about the waiting I'm waiting for another lap on Jan 6th I only had one in June. I get hope and then it comes back I've had bad periods since I was 11 I'm 41 now. 30 years of pain and fighting to be heard and then fighting to be helped. It took 19 years to get pregnant with my 3 year old I lost a twins 8 years earlier. I was 37 when I had lily, lily was born with Down syndrome so she needs more care than most 3 well very nearly 4 year olds so the endo really gets me down because when I'm bad my partner has to care for us both and I also have adopted my granddaughter she's 4 too so I need to be fit and well for them. My heart goes out to you and thank you x x

[CT24 in reply to Kaysha40]

Oh bloody hell. I thought me having to wait 5 years for an answer was bad, I felt I was going mad and that maybe it was all in my head so I was so thankful to get an answer but it's just hard learning to deal with things especially when I don't know the full ins and outs of what's going to happen because I'm waiting till Jan 20th for my post op follow up. But I'm 24 and I do want to start a family in the next couple of years so I'm a little worried how it's going to go but yeah I know what you mean there are more days I feel ill then there are that I feel ok. I can't remember the last time I went a whole day without having some sort of pain, it doesn't help that I seem to be worse since my op 😟 Thank you for replying, it's nice to talk to someone else who can relate. I hope your surgery on the 6th all goes well! X

[Booboo08]

I'm feeling exactly the same. Crappy is an understatement. I'm a strong woman but feel defeated.

You just need give in and sit around.

Have paracetamol with codeine. Doesn't work well alone, codeine

Merry Christmas . Don't worry its only one day xxx

[Nicolahunny]

I understand completely how you feel I try my hardest to get through a day but the pain always gets the better of me I can only do so much and much as I try not to let it beat me it always does I end up in bed with my painkillers hot water bottle sweating shaking like a leaf and taking the life of of me we are brave ladies and do our best to get through it all but I wish you a day to try and have a pain free day wish that was me keep your chin up and all the best to you xcc