Hey ladies! I'm new here.. I'm 21 and my gynecologist is fairly certain that I have endometriosis. Between a strong family history (sister included) and my symptoms, I am just surgery away from knowing for sure. The symptoms have progressively gotten much worse to where the pain is now pretty chronic and sometimes debilitating. My doc wants to get me into surgery fairly soon, but I keep putting it off.. I am so scared I am a nursing student about to graduate and have spent many clinicals in Preop, the OR, and PACU, so I know how the system works, but it is not comforting in the slightest..
I am so scared to be put to sleep.. afraid to give up control like that I guess (I've been a victim of sexual abuse and that plays a major role). I am scared about what all needs to happen while I'm asleep and being exposed and cut into (and a uterine manipulator?). I'm nervous about the idea of being intubated. I'm nervous about the idea of bleeding out (I had major bleeding complications with my tonsils at age 15). I'm nervous about waking up in the PACU and hurting, but not being able to have a loved one with me. I'm nervous about how recovery is really going to go, especially with the pain from the CO2. I'm so scared about nearly every step of the process that I just keep putting it off. Does anyone have any advice..? :/