I am so close to giving up currently waiting for my 2nd lap after a diagnostic one in August. I'm stuck in a rut, pain is worsening by the day but I can't do anything because I'm waiting for this op, no back to back pill, no other treatments. It's ruining my life. No pain relief works either. Had my follow up from my first lap in november where I was seen by a different consultant because my surgeon had to go home sick. I know it wasn't his fault but the stand in could hardly answer my questions and he decided for me to have an MRI scan to see how deep my bowel endo was. ( he even said my surgeon who is head of gynae hardy doesnt do this anymore but he wanted to) it's put back my surgery and I've just had my results back and the letter said no significant endo which is the opposite to my results from my lap ( where nothing was removed!) I've been classed as severe and I had to fill out questionnaires and had the whole talk about the fact I will have an mdt for my surgery. Now I feel like because of some stupid MRI scan my surgeon is not too worried about getting my surgery done. I'm still in the same (worse Infact) pain I was in this time last year at the beginning of my push to find out what was wrong. UTI type feeling everyday, feels like a bruised bladder, groin pain, back pain, stabbing pains, painful bowels, knife like pain up my bottom, passing blood. And the goddamn fatigue. No one should have to deal with all that 24/7. I just want it to be over. My family don't understand why nothing is being done faster, but to me it's just endo- just put up with it.
Sorry for the moan, I'm just grieving the loss of what my life once was. Now it's just struggling through work..trying to manage pain and having no energy for anything else