I had lap last August which confirmed the tears of pain and so tol IBS I had is infact endo. I have been referred to a specialist back in January and am booked in for surgery in a few weeks time (I had to delay surgery due to teacher training). My surgeon has said I will also have a bowel surgeon present as they need to cut out my endo and unstick my bowel from my cervix and cut some endo out of my vagina where is has grown through too. He said it is quite invasive surgery.
I am terrified. I keep having nighmares of dying during surgery. I have had several surgeries in the past to remove my appendix, gallbladder and hernia repairs and never been worried but this time I can't get these negative thoughts out of my head. I'm so scared something is going to go wrong I broke down in tears the other month saying I wanted to cancel the surgery.
I suffer from fatigue caused by the endo and keep getting aching joints and tightness in chest and very cold hands in feet. I'm scared there is something wrong that could cause a problem in surgery. Is it normal to have this fear of dying before surgery? Has anyone had similar surgery. Please help I'm at my wits end. I'm in tears most nights over this.