Just pulled through a bad couple of days.........

Had a bad couple of days , just feeling like I've pulled through it to feel a little better..

I broke down when I went to the therapist yesterday and could only best describe myself as a broken woman....I was in bits.

I am sure I have and still am in denial about being ill. Although I am gradually realising what I thought would go away after giving up my job and after a couple of weeks of rest just isn't the case. I think I got scared after working all my life I had become nothing...

Today feels a little better have a Dr visit Saturday to go to.

I still cannot believe how bloody debilitating this illness can be, I just never understood...it's a total eye opener..

This site has helped me a lot and I am forever grateful to those who have had an input especially when I thought people would be sick of me..I am more grateful for that than you will realise..it's truly a gift to have people who understand, I think I may have lost it by now without this as one of my outlets...thank you just doesn't seem enough,

Sue x x x x x

[plaits]

Sue, you are one of the people who understand! And you are here for others. When you say that you are grateful to people here and that they (we, I suppose) are a gift, just remember that you are one of those people and others are grateful to you and see your input and support as a gift. It works both ways! So try to feel about yourself the way you feel about others here.

We all understand thank you.

And well done for getting through those bad couple of days.

Take care

xx

[Hidden]

Hi plaits

Thank you for your kind words, much appreciated. im glad when I can help someone it feels good.

Sue xx

[Hidden]

Hi Sue,

Oh I sooo can relate to a comment you made:

" I think I got scared after working all my life I had become nothing... "

My psychiatrist says that I have an 'adjustment' problem...it doesn't matter what I 'lose' from daughter leaving home to giving up smoking to name but a couple - I react the same way to all!

It IS so frustrating and debilitating not to have an adequate coping mechanism to being bombarded with 'labels' all our life and then having them all taken away one by one!

That's how I see it anyway.

(((Hugs)))

Lorraine

xxx

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Thank you it's nice to know we not the only ones in all this

Appreciate you sharing, hang on in there !!

Love sue xx

[Jeffju]

You are so helpful on this site Sue and I know your kind words would have helped lots of people. I am also so pleased that Ii found this site as it makes me realise I am not alone with my anxiety/ depression and people on here really understand how each other feels. This illness stops us doing so many things and that's what bugs me. It's taken the enjoyment away from my life.But I think we are stronger, more understanding people for having this illness and have to remember that. I hope your day is better tomorrow and keep on giving the great help that you do. Thanks from me. xx

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Thank you Jeffju.

I agree this illness makes you stronger, more compassionate and understanding too.

I appreciate the comment..and truly hope your weekend is a good one x

[Lush__x]

HI Sue,

Yes i too have found massive comfort to this website and i always think i dont have anything interesting to say but you have helped me also! so thank you for that

In my degree we have recently re-visited identity theory and was just wondering since you quit your job....do you have other things you are a part of. Something that defines you and is another one of your identitys? Like a sport or a hobby etc?

I know, for example, those people in high ranking jobs and they have made it their life etc then lost it, without being totally aware of this, feel like they have lost their identity. I dont no if this is the case for you but it might be worthwhile consentrating on your identity as a wife or a mother or a horse rider etc (all examples of course!!)

My ex was my main identity for so long hense the complete loss when he went away.

Hope this helps or your can relate to this!!

xx