Having a really bad day and although I did w4r3 on Saturday morning, I thought I could try w5r1 this afternoon.
But everything has gone wrong.
i had a huge argument with my son this morning, then forget to download the podcast but thought I do just redo the w4 run anyway as exercise is meant to help your mood. My trainers were still soaking wet from yesterdays run through the fields so i had second thoughts but went for it anyway as I needed to try running on the road given the field is just a big area of mud!
But i really struggled with the run, felt totally stupid as running (well old man jogging) in public i have discovered makes me feel very self conscience, and I got home and just cried my eyes out.
I know part of it is because I very stupidly joined a dating date and have now realised how middle aged, podgy and unattractive I look as I had to take a photo of me on my phone to uplaod and having seen the results i wouldn't date me....i should add I have been a single parent for well over a decade and not had anything remotely resembling a relationship for over 7 years and can't recall the last time I dated; so try the internet dating is not exactly something I am looking forward to but I was seeming to do so well with this programme that I had some of my confidence back and felt like taking life b the horns....I just lost it all and more ;0(
Thus, I have decided.I am a cr*p C25k-er, look like the back end of a bus, am technologically incompetent, and a really bad mum to boot.
I have read here psychology is part of this programme but I really don't think I am up to slow jogging for more than 5 mins. How does anyone get over just wanting to hide under the duvet and never go out of the house in trainers again? Does a really bad day really affect you that much?