Had THE lousiest few days at work. God I was in a bad humour, and even worse - still was this morning.
Run day, but didn't feel like it - got enough of a beating this last few days to go out and be 'too slow', 'legs heavy' 'lungs heaving'...felt bad/frustrated/irate enough as it was.
However - knew it would do me good. Wasn't even thinking 'enjoyable' or 'fulfilling' or 'keeping up the good habit'. Just figured it would be good to run some of the negative energy off, and I didn't want to be around anyone anyway.
Talk about 'run slow' - I set the timer and put all thoughts of 'waymarks' on the back shelf and just ran. And when the 'effort' started kicking in, well what the hell...I just slowed WAY down, because not trying to 'achieve' anything, just running. The heck with distance and speed. I could have sworn I never ran more slowly...
Worked a treat - burned off all the negative energy.
And, surprise surprise - actual distance was only a wee bit less than all the 'faster' running.
I do believe that some of us Runners have a very narrow range of 'speed'. We run very consistently and that's fine - unless of course you really want to set increasingly improving PBs. Me - I run at the same pace as I did my first year pretty much. The one time that saw me REALLY train 'hard' for an event only improved my time over a Ten Mile event by something like eight minutes. The stress of training wasn't worth the investment of time LOL
Funny how it goes with motivation - there are days I can't wait to get out to run, and days when it just feels like its 'dutiful' to run and of course all the days in between the extremes. Some days I feel great but the run doesn't really reflect that, some days I think I am too tired or whatever but at times have my 'best feeling' runs. Some days I just quit in the middle of a run because dammit I just don't want to run any further, no bigger reason than that
I guess my point is - maybe it's helpful to not 'complicate' running by having an ulterior motive - 'getting fit', 'losing weight'' 'being faster'. 'going longer' .
Keep it enjoyable on at least some level - challenges are great motivators, but there are times when just going out the door can be the beginning and end of the challenge...and the run itself the payoff, not it's conclusion
'Just running' made for a great running day today.