That was not easy, that one was a real mountain I had to crawl up but somehow I got up there and luckily it levelled out a little towards the end so against all odds I managed to get like a ten second sprint in there before it finished.
But that was a close one, I very nearly gave up after the first three minutes. I don’t think I’m well, I woke up feeling rough, had a tickly cough come and go throughout the day they hurt my chest and I’ve just been feeling generally week, occasionally dizzy and just not right. There was a point in the afternoon that my head felt heavy and I had to lie down.
So a run was not the best idea but I had to at least try. It’s been a pretty unproductive weekend so it does feel a bit wasted. Lots of boxes still unpacked, it’s taking forever to move in properly and the weekend should be the best chance to get it done so after a day of shuffling around the house I can’t help feeling discouraged at the lack of progress.
But despite all that, here I am glowing, sweating, trying to figure out if I’ve got a temperature or I’m just warm from the run, admittedly breathing a little better than I was at the start of the run but still not feeling great and worried it might be the start of something worse. You know what’s on my mind.
Maybe I didn’t have the best music choice because I ended up listening to one song on a loop but hear me out here because I just exorcised a demon, or at least an ear worm.
It turns out the best way to exorcise an ear worm is to exercise an ear worm. I heard this particular song in Tesco the other night and I’d never heard it before but it was fun and catchy so I Shazam-ed it and proceeded to play it to death.
Now I’m not going to say what it is because it’s a little embarrassing and a world away from my usual choices so all I’ll say is it came out in 2012 and apparently got to number one. I must have already stopped keeping up to date with chat music by then because this was all new to me.
Anyway I wasn’t sure what to listen to, my heart wasn’t really in this run before I did it so I thought, screw it, it’s got a good beat so I’ll just run to it until I can’t. So I did and I could and it got me through and now I’m happy to not listen to it for a long time.
But that was a hard one, I was already starting to get out of breath during the warm up walk and it only got harder from there. I kept up an ok pace, nothing too fast that I couldn’t keep up but after the first three minutes I was really starting to struggle and thought I might have to cut this one short.
But I didn’t WANT to, dammit.
So I told myself, at least try the five minutes, then you won’t feel so bad. Emotional to mean, physically I felt like one of the presents the cat left us on the grass. So I tried it and puffed my way through it and at the halfway point I thought, I’ve come this far so do the three minutes. So I did the three minutes and it was hard but not as hard and my chest felt slightly clearer at least.
Then came the last five minutes and it couldn’t have come soon enough. But I’d be crazy to give up at this point so I took a deep breath and carefully powered through. I maintained a slow bit steady pace and somehow felt just about ok-ish as I went and then because I needed something good to happen I decided to speed up for the very end.
I don’t know if it was a sprint or not, it’s especially hard to tell when you’re running through wet grass, but it was faster and in my state it felt like a real achievement. I need a win right now so I’ll take it.
So Week 5 on Tuesday? God, I don’t know, I’m not sure what’s going on with me, I hope this is as bad as it gets. I’ll have to see how I feel.
Week 4 Complete
The end...
W4R3 - a funny old run. 
End of week one...or is it?!
