Had a demotivation moment but I’ve managed to speak myself out of it.
I tried on a pair of shorts (which have never fit me even when I was smaller) and felt super crap because (surprise) they still don’t fit me.
Now I’m going to back up a year. Last year was a super tough year for me mentally - a lot of battles and negativity going on inside my head (battles I am still fighting today). I will get there but I can recognise how far I’ve come. For a while, I was just trying to make it through an hour at a time. Now I’m finding my battles are more moments rather than days.
At the time doing any kind of fitness was not an option - wrong headspace, wrong time, wrong everything. But at the beginning of the year I made the effort to go back out running. Had been thinking about it for months but again - wrong everything.
Slowly over the weeks (and following couch 2 5k) I have built myself and my body up. I am running faster and longer than I ever have before.
Now, I’m in my final week of the programme and just this morning I was able to run nearly (so, so nearly) 5k in 30 mins (fastest previous was 36mins). I put in everything but today I just didn’t make it. I was super buzzing!
And then I put on them shit shorts 🤦🏼♀️.
Self sabotage, I know. After going in a huff for 5 mins, I sat down and had a think over all the obstacles I have overcome lately and how something like this would have had me relentlessly pouring over for days on end.
Something has dawned on me - I am getting better not just physically (but perhaps more importantly for me) mentally.
And just like that my day has turned back around again.
Anyways, thought I’d share my day. How’s yours going?