Week 8 run 1- anxiety almost stopped play.

[Lindsey-joy]

It's been a really difficult week with family problems and a general feeling of losing control. I haven't felt this tired in a long time and as a result my motivation is at an all time low.

I was due to do the first run of week 8 yesterday morning but i put it off and off because the big ball of anxiety that was sitting under my sternum wouldn't let me. No it wasn't anxiety about the run, i knew in my head that this would help....i just couldn't get going. I really felt that running outside would help but the little gremlins in my head told me that i really didn't want to bump into anyone. I was not in a peopley mood. Eventually, later that evening i forced myself onto the treadmill and ran for 28 minutes. No euphoria. No real sense of achievement. Just temporary relief from the ball of worry.

I have woken up this morning and it's back. Just sitting there in it's usual place making me feel nauseous. It's a rest day today so no run. I think a long walk with the dogs might be in order.

I have come so far and am nearly at the end of the program. This can't get the better of me.

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I'd say running for 28mins is one hell of a achievement, if its on a machine or the great outdoors. Don t beat yourself up over anxiety. If todays a rubbish day I always try to make tomorrow a better day . Enjoy your walk with your dogs and keep ya chin up ! . Your doing a grand job 👌✌

[Lindsey-joy Graduate in reply to Hidden]

Thanks GMAN.

[notquiteretired Graduate]

well done Lyndsey, its a long time to run 28minutes and you did it👍 we have come sooo far from when we started this programme- remember when we posted about 60 seconds being hard. I know that running cant cure us of life’s problems but it can help relieve some of the pressure. We all have bad days, sometimes for reasons very real, caring for others, work pressures, wotever, and there may be little we can do to change these circumstances but we can look at helping ourselves cope with the pressure, taking time for ourselves, jumping off the helter skelter we find ourselves on from time to time. You are doing well, today sounds like one of those not so good days so if you can try and do something positive- walk your dogs, reward yourself , take care of yourself as you would a friend as you are valued, Tomorrow is a new day and a new run, come on Lyndsey we can do this😊

[Lindsey-joy Graduate in reply to notquiteretired]

Thank you for your wise words. I think i need a kick up the backside to make me pull myself together at the moment!

You are right, we have come so far since that first run, we nailed the end of week 5 and we only have a few runs left. Looking forward to our graduation!

[Milajayne Graduate]

Hey Lindsey, I’ve been following your progress, willing you to get to finish line like I did. Please be easy on yourself. Despite everything you still did the 28 mins.

I’m no expert but not every run will bring a sense of fulfilment, sometimes we go into them hoping to shake off ‘whatever’ and they are hard the whole way and then the ‘whatever’ is still very much there afterwards. We wouldn’t run however if this is how it was always. You’ve some amazing runs ahead of you! Keep trucking on and in a few weeks you’ll have this programme complete and be planning what next 😀

[Lindsey-joy Graduate in reply to Milajayne]

Thank you so much! I am in a much better place tonight thank goodness. Hopefully life will settle down one day but for now I just have to ride with it and plod on. I really do think that c25k has helped a lot with keeping stress to a minimum and i am really glad to have found all you lovely people on here 😁