I’m back! I’m 33! I don’t feel well! Maybe I shouldn’t have run today but then maybe I really should’ve because I just kicked Week 7’s ass and I feel good! It doesn’t add up.
The odds were against me and I really had no intention of running today. I’ve got a bug or something, unless this is just what 33 feels like and I better get used to it because this is my life now. I feel like I’m at the age where doctors don’t try to heal you now, they just try to make you comfortable.
So last few days I have felt awful, all blocked up and dizzy and shivery and nauseous. I think this must be what other men call Man Flu when they don’t want to do the washing up.
I still went to work though, it’s too suspicious taking a sick day on your birthday and I was just about able to function so I powered through and, well, pretty much got nothing done.
So with all that going on I decided very early on not to run today but then this evening a window opened up and I thought, hmmmm what’s out there? It really shouldn’t have gone as well as it did. I felt sick, I hadn’t prepared at all, hadn’t eaten in hours and what I did eat wasn’t healthy.
I decided to go easy on myself. Sure, it was a 25 minute run but there was no obligation to finish if I didn’t feel up to it. But of course there was because the stubborn voice in my head told me that if I’m doing this, I’m doing this right dammit.
I wasn’t sure what to listen to so I defaulted to my awesome 90s playlist but I’m getting a bit bored of it now because I’ve been playing it to death all week. Fortunately it starts with an Oasis song and that was all the inspiration I needed so I used the warm up walk to download their essentials playlist (love Apple Music) and that may have been the little push I needed to get going.
It became very clear to me very early on that I would not be able to go the distance. My legs were getting tired already and with my reduced breathing ability I was getting out of breath. It was an indisputable truth that I would not be finishing this. Sometimes it’s nice to be wrong.
I don’t know how it happened but at the 5 minute point I realised I was feeling... not completely horrible. Somehow I settled into a comfortable rhythm managed to keep puffing along without too much difficulty. I didn’t want to jinx it so I didn’t overthink it, I just focused on enjoying the music.
It was an uneventful run without any significant encounters. I just ran around the residential path at my own pace and before I knew it there was only 5 minutes left. I was in two minds at this point because it seemed like a very real possibility that, not only would I finish this, but I might also be able to go above and beyond and add a bit at the end.
Then there was 1 minute left and, while I still had a minuscule amount of fuel left in the tank, I decided to quit while I was ahead. But I still wanted a strong finish so I sped up into a proper run for the last 30 seconds.
I really didn’t think I had this run in me, I felt horrible before it and i feel a little less horrible now. Is running actually good when you’re unwell? Is it good to sweat it out? Or is it going to catch up with me with a vengeance? I kinda need to know because I’m driving to Bristol tomorrow and I’d like to make it home again.
So there we go. Week 7 is done, I’m not sure how I got here but here I am and I look forward to attempting Week 8. This is getting serious, people. Now I’m going to undermine my efforts with chips and, let’s face it, probably birthday cake too.