First, thank you Wolvesmad for support and believing in me.
Today, I had terrible day. After yesterday's approx. 12 hours of computer work, my brain was fried. Even after quite decent night with around 7 hours of sleep, I felt exhausted since morning. Well, I struggled to kick myself out of the bed. Going to work was a miracle. 8 hours of work - a total nightmare. I could barely stand, my brain was barely working, and it was one of those tough Mondays at work as well.
My gremlins were saying: "You are exhausted", "It is cold", "It is windy", "What's the point?", "You won't succeed anyway. How many times have your started and tried this programme and never got to the end?", "You will trip as today is not a good day to run", "Dog will be pulling you around, so you damage your back again", "You can postpone it for tomorrow, or the day after", and so on, and so forth. They just didn't want to shut up.
I found only one way to close their effing mouths. As soon as I came home, I changed my clothes for running immediately. I took a deep breath and few sips of water. I did several leg swings for a warm up, and took my dog. I started to pray to all gods that exist or not to be merciful and allow me to survive without any damage. The god of sun showed good heart, as the sun came out and the world looked really beautiful with tree leaves that started already to change their colours for autumn. So many colours around me with blue sky with only few clouds. The temperature got milder, so the air wasn't so crispy anymore. My dog tried her best to behave, although with various results. We finished warm up walk and ended on the football field for our runs. The beginning was challenging, as I need to convince my body for some extra energy expenditure and some more energetic movements. No more zombie walk that I was performing all day long. I believe it was 3 minute run. I'm glad it wasn't a short one, as my body took a while to understand what the hell is going on and what I expect from it. My legs were heavy and so did my steps. Like a small elephant, but it improved with time. My dog in the meantime was running like crazy all around happy that she is off the lead and that we are doing something so fun together. Clearly we have a little bit different definition of "fun".
I was happy that there was almost nobody on the field during the whole time. As all my mental power went to total concentration on moving my legs forward and breathing. Oh yes, breathing. Deep breaths, supply my muscles and all body with oxygen. Precious oxygen. I wasn't panting. I was sweating more than usual. But y breathing was heavy. I think I can say it was the day of heaviness. All the runs went better than expected. Even the last one. I just had not pleasant surprise, as during last 30 seconds of running my dog found a fox poo. Yeap, the perfume Fox Chanel No 5. Still the best classic among dogs. Whoever had this doubtful pleasure knows exactly what I'm talking about. Thus, my after-run stretching was postponed for after a dog and my shower, as she managed to share this great perfume with me... Saving your details - my bathroom needed a clean, my dog needed some stress venting while playing tug of war (she hates showering, I don't have a hose or anything to clean her in my garden). I got very hungry, so my stretches shrank to the minimum of 5 minutes while reheating my soup.
- my huge sharp headache mostly disappeared
- I completed the run
- I won my inner battle
- I saw beautiful autumn colours
- My dog had some fun, and then some more fun
- I showered my dog (it happens once every two years or so - only after Fox Chanel or similar top dog perfume)
- I'm sure there dozens of body health benefits
- I am not so tired - I think I was more mentally tired, now I am more physically tired.
Believe in yourself and push through! In doubts, come to forum and good people will help you with motivation.
Happy running and thank you everybody - without you I wouldn't be where I am now!