All the usual gang were in attendance today, all protesting at my foolhardiness at "wanting" to do a run.
As some of you will know, if you have read/commented my posts (thank you so much!) - I was struck down with probably the worst cold I've had in my 46 yrs. I was just about to do W5R3 but my virus had other ideas. I lost 9 days, being unable to run and just about able to walk upstairs. Last week I decided to redo R1 & R2 - R1 was ok and I posted about on R1 (Wed). I did R2 on Friday (successfully) but it was hard work. I couldn't seem to get enough air.
Sunday we hosted my sons end of season bbq at our house and I was desparately trying to get out to do R3 before we started at 3pm, I was on my feet from 7am to midnight (approximately 2 minutes sitting down in that time). I went to bed with sore feet, knees & back.
Monday morning (today) up at 7am as the inflatable guy was coming back to pick up his kit and the tidy up started. Every step I took I was in pain. The soles of my feet felt bruised and my knees still ached.
I was crest fallen - what was I going to do? I'd already had 2 days off, I couldn't take a 3rd.......
A runner friend of mine told me a few weeks ago "You will get days you just don't want to go, for whatever reason. But what I do, is go and put all my stuff on and get ready to go out, if you still don't want to go after that, then you should probably stay home.
After two hours, aches / pains still in attendance, but no worse, feet dully aching reminding me I'm not 26 anymore - I went and put on my gear, headphones and arm strap.
"what are you doing" the wife says "you are hobbling about like Gollum, you can't be serious?" But serious I was...… kit on, out I went.
New apple workout mix playlist - 2nd song "Florence & the machine - you got the love" time to start running. My feet, who were so eager to go again on R1, were now actively screaming that I was an idiot and who did I think I was??
3rd song (of all things!!!) Sugababes About a girl - Tells me I'm strong and no one has this but me. (Yes this is an apple workout playlist, but I believe them!!)
I'm lost in a haze, just putting one foot in front of the other - Feet have stopped complaining now and have resigned themselves to making me pay later - like some kind of evil genius.
Laura pops up - You are 1/2 way well done, you've just run for 10 minutes.
Then my legs wake up - "What are you doing, just stop you bloody idiot!" This is where the battle began, as then my feet, now with added support from the legs also started not wanting to go any further. I struggled through the next 5 minutes and Laura appears to tell me "just 5 more minutes"
Feet, legs & knees - Not if we have anything to do with it. I am filled with determination not to get this far and let my own body let me down. I'm starting to swerve across the path while Black Eyed Peas tell me they have a feeling... whoooo hoooo. Laura is back - 2 minutes to go...… I can see the point where I started my own personal war.
Chase & Status with Liam Bailey - Blind Faith - I know I can do it, I've done 18 minutes. Lungs are now complaining and somewhere I have 2 stitches...…
Laura - "Well done, you've just run for 20 minutes. Did you think you would ever be running for 20 minutes non stop - you've come so far" Well Laura - I didn't think I could actually do it when I started 25 minutes ago.
I didn't post my R2 as it was hard, and I am sorry for posting this self serving diatribe on here lol, but on one hand I want newbies to week 5 need to know that every run is a personal battle and its not all plain sailing. People will hit a wall. hard week, illness, or just plain "can't be arsed" and all of that is OK, it really is. Its what you do next that counts....
The one over riding factor is its your journey, no one can do it for you. Everyone here will help, "will" you on, have a bit of banter and help guide you through troubled times.
I can honestly say I don't know if I'd have got through the last 2 weeks without the support network on here.
So from me to you - THANK YOU! from the very bottom of my heart. I'll see you at the finish line.