Right, stay with me on this one, it's going to be a long post, but i'm really hoping that (like me) someone will be trawling old posts looking for a bit of a boost and this might just help them. Please don't feel obliged to keep reading but there is a question at the end for those with more experience and i'd really appreciate your input. Feel free to scroll straight to the bottom...
So my last run was almost a complete disaster and I have to admit that I was really beginning to question my place on the program. My motivation and confidence in my ability to do it were at rock bottom. When i finished the last run, i was talking myself in to giving it a week, letting myself recover, then repeating wk 4... I knew deep down if I did that, it would be the end of my c25k journey.
By some miracle, yesterday I began to feel more motivated again. I spent every spare moment reading through everyone's (amazing) posts on this forum, detailing their journeys through this wonderful program and feeling more and more motivated to get back out there.
Woke up buzzing this morning (but still with anxiety about my ability) and got myself ready straight away. Hubby took the kids to school/nursery and I got straight out there.
I honestly think it was the best (and most rewarding) run I have had so far!!! I felt like I really took control back and realised that I really can do this!
Things I have learnt...
- if you feel like you are not managing but you can't possibly go an slower, YOU REALLY CAN GO SLOWER!
- going slower really does make ALL the difference
- when you feel like you want to do it the least, that is when you most need to go
- i really can do this!
A really epiphany happened when I read a comment on another post about 'slow jogging' with a really helpful video. Ill see if i can find a link and pop it in the comments below.
My question...
I had an (almost) successful wk4 r1, stopping briefly in the last 5 minutes when my route didn't quite work itself out, but i got going again very quickly and felt like i could have continued without stopping.
Wk4 r2 was a bit of a fail before i even started. My head just wasnt in it, but i managed to run all until the last 5 minutes, where I managed 2.5mins and had to walk the rest.
Today, wk4 r3, i completed all the runs with total control and energy to spare. It was hard but I didn't feel like i was ready to quit at any point.
So do i move on to next week? Or do I repeat and make sure it wasn't just a fluke? I normally just move straight on in these circumstances, but my crisis in confidence this week has made me question of i need to repeat?
Thanks guys for all your motivation and support!!