That was awful. Abysmal, terrible - and yet I'm posting here because I think it's important, if you're new, to know that even if you've been running for quite a while, you can still have bad runs. My last post was about my lovely 7.5k run on my 4th runniversary.
I'm working up to a 10k event on 1st May and today was my first 10k for a while. My last 10k took around 1hr and 10 minutes, but that was ambitious for today because I was attempting a hilly route as the event itself is frighteningly hilly. I thought 1hr and 20 would be about right. I ate well last night, had porridge early this morning, was well-hydrated, covered in sun-block, had taken my inhaler and had been for a wee in the car park loos so was ready to go All was on track, you'd think.
It was a hateful run. By 3k I was bored. I don't run with music any more, but I wished I'd brought my earphones. By 4k I was tiring, and couldn't help fearing all the hills I'd tackled on my way out (it was a there-and-back-again route). At 5k I stopped and looked for a quiet place for a shewee It was like Piccadilly blooming Circus! Walkers, birdwatchers, cyclists, runners - no chance.
I turned round and headed back. I confess, I walked up most of the hills on the way back. I had no energy in the legs. I was resentful, I was fed up, I was unhappy - I was almost in tears at one point, thinking that there was no way I was going to be able to run 10k at Chatsworth without disgracing myself utterly. Everything was uncomfortable - my armband was rubbing, despite the BodyGlide, my car key and inhaler were knocking against each other with every step - tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick - no matter how I tried to rearrange them, my toes were rubbing slightly on my shoes on the downhills, my knee was twinging - you name it, it was wrong.
I made it back to the car. The time on the Garmin was 1:28. To be fair, probably about 5 minutes of that was looking for a private corner, and there was a minute when I stopped to listen to a woodpecker, and another minute when I stopped to get the grit out of my shoe - and then just stopped - but on the whole, a dismal performance.
And it really doesn't matter that much. My next run will most likely be better. I haven't a clue why this one was so bad. On paper, it should have been okay. But it wasn't. The point is, it won't stop me going out again. Because it doesn't, does it? Even if you're just starting, and you're still on Week 1 and wondering if you should repeat it, you'll lace up and get out there again in a couple of days. You will. Because we all do. We're runners