To Have and Have Not (1944)

Oh the injustice of it all. To have taken up runnng and enjoyed it so much and then to have it not. Well, it's just not on is it?

My last run was on the 19th May! Yes really. I went for a nice easy run, no injuries, no pain and the next day two of my toes were swollen. To cut a long story short, I've been to the doctor twice and physio twice and they don't know what's causing the swelling. Doc thought it was RSI but after lots of RICE, there was no change so am getting an ultrascan on Friday. The swelling is still there although there is no pain whatsoever. Weird. There's no diagnosis yet but the doctor and physio agreed on one thing - NO RUNNING!

I must say I was tempted nearly every day because there was no pain, but I remembered what many of you said here about listening to your body and taking time out but it's been so hard not being able to run. I've been cycling and doing weights in the gym to try to keep my fitness level up but it's not the same, is it? (sob sob!) . I miss running so much. What's that saying? "It's better to have run and lost than never to have run at all". But if I had never run then I wouldn't miss it. You know what I mean.

I've been reading your posts and that has helped a lot. I know there are others who are out injured too so there's this great community for inspiration and understanding.

I WILL be back. I might have to redo C25K but you know what? I'm quite looking forward to that!

Keep everything crossed for Friday.

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  • Oh dear, sorry to hear you're injured. I wonder what it is! It might be nothing at all but swollen toes and they sort themselves out. I do hope so. Fingers crossed for Friday. Keep us posted

  • Thanks misswobbble. Seems I've been out more than I've been in recently!

  • Everything definitely crossed for Friday. No-one wants to be a medical mystery do they? Hope all goes well and you get the all clear to go running soon.

  • Thank you. I'm keeping everything crossed!

  • Good luck for Friday hope they find the cause and you get there soon.

  • Thanks for that. Much appreciated.

  • Good luck for Friday xx

  • Thanks PandaRunner. I'm hoping if lots of people send me good luck vibes, it'll be ok!

  • Oh dear, having just been out injured for a month myself I can totally understand your frustration. I hope it goes well for you on Friday and you're back running soon .

  • It's horrible, isn't it? If you'd told me before I started this running lark that I would miss it so much, I wouldn't have believed it! Are you back running yet?

  • I tried a couple of 10 min test runs last week and this week am back at W6 so far so good (fingers crossed). I have lost a lot of confidence though. Take it carefully when you're back 'on the road'

  • Good luck with the scan on Friday. Hope it's something trivial with a simple cure. In the meantime there's plenty of room on the injury couch, just bring cake or sweeties ( or, of course, both) :)

  • Thanks AncientMum. Reading the posts here I think we need a very long injury couch!

  • Ooh poor you! Hope everything turns out well and you are back and running soon! x :-)

  • Me too! Thank you for your wishes.

  • I wondered where you were. I am so sorry to hear you're still on the couch and hope you get some good news on Friday. I also totally understand your frustration, I was injured or ill for almost 3 months and only started back 3 weeks ago. It's so hard wanting to run but not being able to, and at least I felt terrible so knew I couldn't run. Must be worse for you. You are doing the right thing though, especially since both GP and physio advise not running :(

    I am sure you will be back and when you are you may not have to re-do all of the cto5k programme, I am doing week 6 run 2 tomorrow. I scooted back through weeks 1 2 3 4 doing one run of each then going through the rest of the programme as it comes. So it's not taking that long. Sending good wishes to all of you on the injury bench!

  • You are so kind lizziebeth57 and you've reassured me that I may not need to go back to the VERY beginning of the programme! I can't imagine not having running in my life so if I have to start at W1R1, then bring it on!

  • I'm so sorry to hear that. Especially as yesterday I actually discovered what you guys mean when you say you enjoy the run itself - so far, if I'm honest, I really only enjoyed the after-effects. Now I know what it is to want to run on rest days...

    Will be wishing you all the very best for tomorrow, and hope that they find out what it is and give you permission to get back out there asap.

  • Yes it takes a while to get that feeling of "I like running" but it's so worth it when it comes. Thank you so much for your good wishes.

  • Terrible news. I hope you get to the bottom of it soon. Good luck :)

  • Thanks Paul. Much appreciated.

  • You're welcome ;)

  • Hi Irishprincess....you poor little soul! You were very supportive to me when I had a moan recently....I will be thinking of you and hoping you get some sort of diagnosis soon. In the meantime, keep your chin up , and keep posting to let us know how you're doing!!

  • Aww, how sweet! Thank you for your thoughts. It means a lot to me.

  • I do hope you get a diagnosis, and that it's a good one, and that 'they' let you get right back out there! But if not, you know you can take it slowly and that you won't give up running, even if it takes a while to get back to it again. All the very best for tomorrow - let us know how you get on.

  • Good luck for tomorrow - an ultrasound scan sounds like a sensible thing to do. I'm sure you'll be back out there sooner than you think!

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