So, I look "fit", people comment on me being slim and how flat my stomach is etc and then rubbish my comments about feeling lethargic or eating rubbish and putting on weight. We all know what it's like to feel and see changes in yourself. It kinda annoys me that I'm almost "not allowed" to join in when everyone's bitching and moaning about themselves or "people like me that are just lucky." If I was attacked, I couldn't run away. That's a big deal. It scares me. I'm 28 and I'm starting to see changes now, even in how tired I am. I have a friend that runs a lot but doesn't feel happy with her shape or hasn't noticed change, but I'm jealous in a way that she is one of those people that can just run n run. I used to smoke, get a lot of respiratory infections or colds etc and I almost feel like I'm panicking when I'm running. I hear my breathing and banging feet and I panic. I want to do this. I want to be a mum and run around daft with my kids. I want to not feel like I'm going to pass out if I run for the bus. Mostly I just want to be able to say "I can run. I can do it." And even be able to enjoy it. I think it would help with my depression, better that I run and think and breath and feel positive after taking some alone time than going to bed and sleeping at random times and then eating things covered in cheese while watching telly like I do now :/ I feel scared?