I must apologize in advance for the outburst that is about to follow.......
There, it's out there now and so sorry again for the language but that's just how I feel right now. After a fairly long break (on holiday for my 30th birthday - lots of food and drink and NO running - so 10 or 11 days missed), I was slightly worried about my run on Monday. So I thought I won't push myself and aim for a 15 min run. Despite desperately needing a wee for most of it (that's never happened before and it was HORRIBLE), I managed to run for 30 mins. Oh my! You should have seen the look on my face! I was SO happy. Granted, it wasn't easy but it wasn't terrible either. After a few poor runs earlier in May, I was so glad to be back on track. AND I continued to walk until I did a full 5k - yey!
Tuesday and today my legs ached a bit but they didn't feel tired or painful. I shared some treadmill tales with a guy in work, and despite having a really horrible day, I was looking forward to my run tonight.
Then it all went a bit wrong. The treadmills now have this feature where you can sign in and record your progress and set targets and whatnot. After 3 attempts at logging in, I finally managed to get going. Oops! Then I realized that I didn't get my flannel out of my bag. So I had to stop and get it. Oh, now my music is all out of sync. Pink is halfway through her first track. Oh well, never mind, I must continue on with my warm up walk. I did my 5 mins and started running - at last. 1 min later I feel like I need a wee again. Seriously? I went to the loo not 10 mins ago! Oh no! I don't want this feeling for the next 30 mins again!!! What is going on? The first 5 mins of running is ALWAYS the worst for me and tonight was no different. Then, during my 6th min, my legs just seized up. Not like an agonizing cramp, but a tight, bunching feeling all up the back of my thighs. I managed a few more seconds but then I just had to stop.
I did a few mins of walking then attempted to run again. No, it's no good. My legs feel like angry jelly! Tight but wobbly. More walking, trying to loosen my legs up (the full bladder feeling easing at least). Another try at running - can't even do 30 seconds now. Trying not to cry, I focus on walking the remainder to 2 miles.
So not even a 10 min run tonight - so upset!!! Having a cry in the car on the way back home (BF driving, not me!), my BF tried to cheer me up. God, he does a damn good pep talk! So despite feeling so disappointed, I can see now that my body was not quite over the shock of running again on Monday and I did what I could. I TRIED. My Mum too had some lovely words of comfort and now I must focus on my next run on Friday. The stupid thing is, I know that I can do it - I've done many 30 min runs. I just need to get back into the flow!
Sorry about my rant and thanks for listening (well reading actually but you know what I mean!) xxx