So to simply put it: I lost my father to suicide last week Monday. I am enduring the fact of being his daughter that found him at the barn, and having to call my mom at work.
He had been dealing with back pain for years. Went through surgeries that didn’t work, and suffered from depression that he didn’t deal with.
He was a great man who loved helping people, but really struggled with asking for help. The typical John Wayne farm boy mentality “you’re the man of the house.”
I have some therapy appointments scheduled but I wanted to reach out to anyone who has handled losing a family member this way/ended being the person finding that family member. Just really trying to be strong but finding that it’s harder than I thought it would be:
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Kasi, So sorry for the loss and glad you reached out to others who can help you. There is a good book on complicated grief and one that is in journal form. If interested I will get the title for you when you feel ready as now things are so raw for you now. Take good care and our hearts are with you.
Healing after loss, A Daily Journal For working Through Grief by Martha Whitmore Hickman. Need to get the Complicated Grief title tomorrow but think that is the title. I will get back to you on that specific, if it is still in print. There is a great check list on a list of ways to proceed through grief. There is also a workbook that allows you to go heal through seasons of grief with poetry on the seasons, which I specially like. I will get that title for you as well. Take good care.
I can’t help but in someways feel like I somehow caused my dad to take his own life. I was with him everyday and I just wish I would have picked up how bad it was. He never let on how bad it was until I found him
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