Last night, out of the blue I cried for my long departed Dad, grief has been really hard for me for many years, never seem to have really got through the journey. I cried, not because he was such a wonderful Father but because I finally realised he was an awful man where his family was concerned but 'wonderful' to everyone outside.
I think I may be finally getting there.
Chloe
Narcissistic parents are the toughest to recover from.
Acceptance and no longer defending them is a great start.
You may also now be grieving the father you should have had, deserved in fact. Or just the childhood that could have been richer with love.
Big hugs x
Yes I feel as if I have been there with my own father. I asked myself where oh where are all these people he has treated wonderful in his time of need?
I don’t have children but realized with my recent dog’s passing that I was not in tune enough to realize her geriatric needs in a timely manner. So I feel in essence I took after my father. This has been a hard awakening for me. Hopefully you do not have to struggle with these feelings as well.
Thank you Clarrisa
Reading your first paragraph, well I could well have said that myself!
I find it more and more amazing the effect parents have on their children way into their futures. I really do hope the struggle gets better soon, don't be too hard on yourself <3
Chloe
sorry to read that you cried chloe as much as I miss my dad as we really only had a relationship for 8 years things about him that I didn't like.
Yes Kenny, kenster1 it's a sad reality sometimes, I think we always push the bad stuff to the back of our minds and I think that's why it hit me so badly!
Take care
Chloe
I hope you are ok now chloe40 
Sometimes we need to let the tears flow and sometimes they come from nowhere.
I miss my family, (mum, dad and sister) more than I ever have before. I feel isolated and lonely in someways and I feel guilty and resentment, when I hear someone call or speak to their parents. I even call my parents old number sometimes, fortunately it is no longer in circulation, but it makes me feel better.
You take care chloe40, and know I am only a message away.
Thank you so much JOLLYDOLLY
It came out of nowhere and completely threw me but now I feel that it was meant to happen, odd as that sounds, as I really feel I have finally come to the journeys end. <3
It's been such a hard road for you {{{hugs}}} you must do whatever helps you at the time Jolly xx
Chloe x
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