Well is m trying to be strong but tonight I feel I am failing everyone, my foster daughter is going back to family, against her wishes and the decision was made by one social worker not my one. Now I fear for her more than ever, she was doing so well here and now she is already showing signs of worry, I fear she will self harm and run away but my hands are tied. Now my own daughter has gone into major depression and I caught her wanting to self harm again. And my son cried himself to sleep. My boyfriend couldn't cope so is at his flat till he calms down and I am here in my room crying, and trying to cope with a pain seizure and a fibromyalgia attack. I got offered three jobs last week which I am too disabled to do but the old me would have been brilliant at them. I feel so rubbish I have had so many panic attacks this week. Why can't I be strong enough? Why couldn't I save my foster daughter? What am I to do for my kids, my daughter is flatly refusing counselling now.