Getting there x

Ok so I am beating my fear and have took my anti de tonight, I would of took it last night but only had one left, (doctors defo tomoz) so I took it not long back. My fear is still there but I feel like its fading. I was lieing on my bed earlyer and was thinking about this last year I've had with anxiety. I haven't been out or had one bit of alcohol for nearlly a year, I only ever go to bingo and now and then the cinema. Which to be honest it doesn't bother me as I can't be done with hang overs and I will not drink while on anti des. Last year I was in such a state, panic attacks everyday, detached from my surroundings and crying all the time. At that point I thought i was stuck in the cycle of anxiety and just lay down either on the settee or in bed most the day. As time as gone on I know more about what anxiety is and what its like to live with. It is hard but nobody said that it was going to be easy. I am more myself these days,even thou I still have bad days and times when I'm feeling down. I have come along way with it, and my atitude most the time is wtf to it. I do still worry that if I miss to many of my tablets that i will be back at square one with it. That's when I start feeling down, but if I don't think that way I don't think I would feel down. I still have fears to overcome, but I'm just taking them day by day. I still get the anxiety symptoms but I haven't had an anxiety attack for mths. I know I've still along way to go but I will get there and be anxiety free. I have got posistive quotes on my bedroom wall still, but they do help and remind me to start my day postive. I am a postive person and I have never let anything drag me down for long, I always find away to come back up. I'm going to stop boring you all now, and have got to get back on the laptop to do more research. My little boy was said to have depraxsia and I've been told he could have abit of autism. I'm not searching google but am looking on the nhs site for it. Hope we all have a positve monday. I will be going to the doctors and whywhy coming with me as I get panicky in there. Love to u all xxxx

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  • Dona

    You could never bore us hun & well done you

    Yes I will be there & dont you forget it ;)

    Since coming on this site , I have seen a change in you for the better , I am not just saying that , i really have , sometimes we dont always see it , but others can & believe me you are achieving so much & I am so pleased for you as you deserve it :-)

    Hugs

    whywhy

    xxx

  • Thanx whywhy, this site as helped me a lot. I don't keep everything inside anymore like I used to, I've realised that doesn't help. I've just had a big boost of positiveness tonight, and feeling so like me, the old me. I'm liking it lol I'm not gonna be panicky at the doctors ur with me so I be fine :-) xxx

  • Of course , you will be fine I will be with you ;) , i have to go to dentist after , get this tooth finished , do you fancy a trip there once we have been to GP ?

    whywhy

    xxx

  • Hi dona glad you doing better i hope i will think more positive one day like you but at moment finding it a struggle hope you find everything for your little boy and am glad i have met you on here hopefully i will start to feel like you one day xx

  • Yes whywhy I will come with u, maybe get my tooth seen to as well. Thank you for cumming with me to the doctors, I hate waiting to c the gp, he needs to hurry up. Sheffieldwed u will get there but it takes times, take one day at a time. U will get there xxx

  • Thanks dona you was the 1st to help me and hopefully will feel more confident night is approaching and already can feel the flutters and tension wish me luck i hate it at nigjt its those long hours of sweating and terrible nausea how much longer can this go on keep in touch xx

  • I was the same at night time I really dreaded the night time coming, its when the anxiety was at its worst. now night times are a lot better and I m back to enjoying my chilling out time in front of the tv xxx

  • Thanks dona trying to relax but i know i will wake during night thats worse on my own and feeling ill any hints for relaxing is camomile tea ok to have or is it safe to take any herbal remedies whilst using meds xxx

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