Can't get a qestion on here sick of it need somebody to listen

[Dazzers]

Feed up with docs gettin angry no one believes me all my kids 4 r going to die its my fault I'm sorry ill make sure they don't suffer the docs under estimate the situation I'm not mad sorry for being bad and depressive

[michellec23]

Hi what makes you think your children are going to die? Why does your doctor get angry?

[Dazzers in reply to michellec23]

Sorry it's me who gets angry it's hard to explaine they have loads off simptons I no I td true but please I beg I'm wrong it will drive me crazy in the end I'm afraid of the future thanks x

[leehow79]

Hi hun, sorry u feelin so bad + no 1s awnserin ur questions but i dnt really understand wot ur sayin, if u cld spell it more clearly myslf + im sure others will get bck 2 u but plse dnt take it personaly + plus its late + mst peeps hav gone bed. try 2 stay calm. kindest regards leeanne.x

[Dazzers in reply to leehow79]

Sorry I was just angry my messages wernt going on here not rely bothered about replies just getting used to this texing thanks for your reply I'm just confused thanks

May be its in my head thanks x

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Hiya Dazzers, anxiety and panic attacks always makes us feel like something bad is going to happen, either to you or your loved ones. Are you on any medication or counselling for it?

If your Dr is not helping you and you feel he/she is getting angry with you, could you see another Dr?

[Dazzers in reply to Hidden]

Hi Linny sorry it's me who's getting angry , yes I'm on 600 quatiapine and 400 lamotragine I was seeing the mental health team for a year or mor but I agreed I felt better now so stoed seeing them 4 weeks ago about I never rely delt with this problem I can't believe why I didn't but now I am getting quite worried about what could happen in the future it's rely not good sorry it is my fault I rely don't want any simpothy as I am bad the kids r not young and r all I live for I need to do something thanks

[leehow79]

So sorry u r feelin bad but anxiety + depression can hit us in so many ways u wldnt blieve. can even cause unblievable physical syptoms u wouldnt hav guessed. many of us feel like we r goin 2 go mad + its very unlikly 2 happen, mst people wiv anxiety issues r as sane as any1. i m goin through a nervous brkdwn but am as sane as any1. U sound like ur sufferin frm unwanyed thoughts + CBT is exelent 4 this. I know a girl who lst a baby 2 cot death, yrs later wen she had another baby she kept gettin unwanted thoughts about hurting her baby she did CBT + it really worked 4 her. is there a different dr u can c. kindest regards leeanne.x

[Dazzers in reply to leehow79]

Hi thanks again for your advice I hope you r doing ok a breakdown horrible to r you copping all rite at the moment I'm a fine one to talk but life can be good espeacily I thing when you meet like minded people on here who understand how ward it can be we will win thanks x

[michellec23]

Try not to worry since i had my anxiety im more health anxious about my little boy as parent we worry about are kids im sure there nothink try not look in to future you should try tske each day atbtime and to enjoy your life and enjoy your kids they wouldnt want you worrying your self over them

[Dazzers in reply to michellec23]

Thanks ill try its been going on for years and the end is getting nearer I feel il try what u say honestly I rely don't think it is anxiety I no what every body means and thank every one for there help but what can I do to make people believe me and can I say rely it doesn't mater if no one believes me because it won't help them , I have thought how I can stop all there pain not unless its 100 percent , not good but I'm only 90 percent sure at moment u can see why the docs don't rely like me now thanks

[Dazzers]

Thanks for your help I rely don't think the doctors can sort it out I'm tired off doctors now but they r good people I think the doctors don't like me because of what I say they haven't said or done anything to say they don't like me but they all talk and don't rely blame them I'm not felin sorry for my self and do feel alone now carnt rely trust any one every one prob thinks I'm just exaggerating every think I'm actually not I don'e I've sort of done with therapy now im probly wrong . Wish I was I'm not thanks for listning

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Dazzers, please dont feel alone, you are really not alone. Anxiety makes us paranoid, stressed, tired, euphoric, nervous, agitated and the list goes on and on. Guilt and trust are big issues when people suffer with anxiety, and the constant worry and fear that something dreadful is about to happen is overpowering. There is hope and recovery, but you have to ride the rollercoaster from hell first, which is what i did, and here i am, not fully recovered but 80%.

It sounds as if you need your meds adjusting, or maybe you are on the wrong medication. Go back to your Dr and have a chat with him/her and talk to the mental health team, they are there to help you. Dont let your mind race and think they are against you, they are not, it is your anxious state of mind that is driving you at the moment and you need help to adjust, to give your brain a little tweak with the right sort of medication and maybe some counselling.

You are not mad, we are just over sensitive souls who are fighting this battle with anxiety.

Please, go and see your Dr again, ignore the paranoia that is going on in your head at the moment, no one is against you, they are there to help.

[Dazzers in reply to Hidden]

Thanks I do agree I think you r rite I'm feeling better today I have t got any of them around me now it's like out off site out off mind and I relax as best I can I can try and speak positive which I am in costa s now but it at nite if they r with me it all runs wild in my head and these times r getting worse ,I've been in grayling well a couplet times over a the year loads better now I used street Valium and stuff to stop it , I'm good today I feel better with your chat thanks great you r 80 percent 100 soon thanks x

[leehow79]

R u on any antidepressants. wen 1st got my brkdwn though my life wasnt worth savin, very suicidal cld never c things changin + that was only a wk or 2 ago. really wanted 2 end my life but knew it wld kill my mum as she lost my younger brother + also cld never leave my daughter shes my world but wen u r mentaly ill its very hard 2 c things clearly. i can now c things clearly as every1 on ere daid i wld but am also aeare that wiv my emotions cld b bck 2 square 1 at the drop of an hat so take everyday now as it comes. wen u r sufferin badly u think ur the only person 4 this 2 ever happen 2 which is so not the case. i thought i cld never b saved + still do somtimes but its definatly not true. as bad as u feel there r others ere that truly under stand. ur heads jst all over the place at the moment + u need hlp 2 c things more clearly, weather thats medd or more therapy u can + do deserve 2 get better. cldnt begin 2 tell u about the s... ive seen + bin through, am only 33 but would need 2 write numerous biographies jst 2 tell the simple basics of my story but we hav 2 carry on + as specialy as mums wot choice do we hav but 2 fight. hope u get some hlp.x

[Dazzers in reply to leehow79]

ThAnks again u r rite I just didn't with stuff in grayling well though it was just drugs and depression could not bring stuf up in there like they say got to face your demons to get better I'll be honest with you I tried once it went crazy overdoses and worse so they stop the therapy some people have delt with Terible things like u say I speaking real truth now it does actually make me feal weak and like a coward as I can't face my stuff and others have I sorry I get low as I talk I'm here for my kids one day ill be here for me to I feel physically sick who I Am sometimes I don't think I will ever except my past ,hay anough Dom gloom , just let me say this rubbish then il talk positive I promise thanks u r a help 4 lisening

[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear Dazzers,

You can always call the Samaritans, they will listen and are trained professionals. There number is 08457 90 90 90.

I wish you all the very best.

Kindest regards,

Marcus

[Dazzers]

Thanks Marcus some times you forget they r there great help from every one on here thanks again got the number now I betternow

[leehow79]

Dazzers ur right i dnt think people r gettin u bcause u dnt seem 2 b sayin ur anxous, if ive got it right ur sufferin frm intrusive thoughts about ur children, u may or also may not realise but u cld hav a form of depression it cld even b frm still b frm pregnancy + not treated leadin 2 these thoughts. sounds like u really hav lst ur faith in the professionals but theyre not all the same they is som good 1s. wot treatment + suport hav u had. i wld still recomend gettin hlp or were else would u b. im also fed up wiv the professionals, keep givin me conflictin advise + we hav 2 put our trust in these people. Do u hav a mum or any1 else 2 talk 2. u really do seem in a bad place wiv ur mind at the moment but i promise u can get better.x

[loopsyloo]

Hi , I can completly sympathies with you . I have 3 children under the age of 5 and I am constantly worriws something awful is going to happen to them ( I have even sent my husband to a&e with my youngest as we spk as im concerned she is breathing too fast ). Has anything ever happened illness or accident to you child that has put a strain on you. My daughter was hospitalised with a severe chest infection when she was 4 weeks old and since then I am sure summit bad is going to happens to them all the time . My doctor is sendin my to CBT to try and get me to control it but I completely understand how awful it is to feel like this. Its always best to be safe than sorry where kids are concerned amd doctors are there for just that reason so dnt let them make you feel bad about it

[Dazzers in reply to loopsyloo]

Hi thanks for your reply I saw my mum rite after she had a car crash bad head injuries messy u no she was ok after a coupler years but I think what I saw might have some thing to do with it don't no how but may be I thought she was dead and got. This fear I never rely mentioned this to syciartrists . I to would call an ambulance when they had bad chest and say they stopped breathing because I thought the worst when they were young they r 15 to 19 now I should be better now but other things have made worse I think u r rite I think events in our life's mould us and our fears to who we r now ,I'm not winning yet thanks

[Dazzers in reply to loopsyloo]

Hi thanks for your reply I saw my mum rite after she had a car crash bad head injuries messy u no she was ok after a coupler years but I think what I saw might have some thing to do with it don't no how but may be I thought she was dead and got. This fear I never rely mentioned this to syciartrists . I to would call an ambulance when they had bad chest and say they stopped breathing because I thought the worst when they were young they r 15 to 19 now I should be better now but other things have made worse I think u r rite I think events in our life's mould us and our fears to who we r now ,I'm not winning yet thanks

[Dazzers in reply to loopsyloo]

Hi thanks for your reply I saw my mum rite after she had a car crash bad head injuries messy u no she was ok after a coupler years but I think what I saw might have some thing to do with it don't no how but may be I thought she was dead and got. This fear I never rely mentioned this to syciartrists . I to would call an ambulance when they had bad chest and say they stopped breathing because I thought the worst when they were young they r 15 to 19 now I should be better now but no thanks

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[Dazzers in reply to Hidden]

Thanks lora I see what u mean I'm getting hang of it now thanks

[Dazzers]

Hi thanks paddy 2 I'm feeling better now I'm runing a lot and other stuff so when I push it hard it hurts and keeps my mind working I'm on my own as well so don't have to see stuff I'm on a high at the moment I no the low will come , I ll be normall for a little while act normal in front of kids and that then crash the highs get higher and the lows get lower I've seen mental health team and sycoligist but I am a little paranoid off them now I'm up at the min thanks again