Hi...
I realise that my problems are nowhere near as chronic as many on this site, but I would appreciate any comments nevertheless.
I have never really suffered with anxiety. I had a conventional panic attack brought on by substance abuse (marijuana) many years (7-8) ago, but aside from some general sleeplessness (not insomnia) and very mild bouts of depression, I have a clean bill of mental health.
However, on 30 December I had an enormous attack - of anxiety, panic, I'm not sure. Certainly, it did not subside like the previous panic attack I had experienced. The reasons for this are pretty clear: I have a very high pressured job in London and had been increasingly feeling stressed. I had been feeling slight heart 'flurries' for up to two months but had just ignored them. My approach to a high workload was, as it always has been, work harder, run faster. Of course in hindsight, this is a disastrous move. Similarly disastrous was my attempt to combat the onset of this attack on 30 December with alcohol and continuing with my New Years Plans in a different city, regardless. The levels of adrenaline coursing through me were ridiculous. And they did not subside. I slept for 3-4 hours in an alcohol induced 'coma' on 31st Dec/1st Jan, but when I awoke, the adrenaline was still there....
I did not sleep again until the night of 3rd January and only then after effectively losing it and eventually being prescribed Zopiclone in hospital. I used this for two nights.
That's basically the background. I really believe, having a good analytical grasp on the causes of my attack - work stress and recent family bereavement - that I can manage this long-term, using conventional methods - exercise, healthier lifestyle choices and less stress at work (the irony is that I'd already hired a colleague to job-share, having covered two jobs for nearly two years). The anxiety has subsided and my heart, finally, appears back to normal. But I still can't sleep without Zopiclone. I am totally calm and relaxed, but am ludicrously self-conscious about sleeping - to the point where I find my mind is now fighting my body. I don't seem able to control it and it seems to bear no relation to how calm I am....
Any tips or the insomnia? Or thoughts on what actually happened to me? What kind of anxiety/panic attack was it? It never seemed to subside... for days.