Hi every one im feeling very alone at the moment my best friend who I think so mush of isn't having anything to do with me, she's always been the only one I could relie on and helped me with a lot of bad times,
But now coz of my stupid mind I have pushed her away I'm so angry with my self, I just feel I don't deserve anyone's compey, and help...
Hi. Canon. First of all you should forget the business about 'your stupid mind'; it is not your fault that you are as you are. Circumstances overtake all of us at times and we can only do our best to recover. I know how you feel but being angry with yourself is not going to help, in fact it could make you feel worse. Feeling angry is a common symptom of this state so do not be too upset by it. People cannot understand why we are as we are and so tend to shy away, usually in fear, because they have never been where you are now and so do not understand.
You do deserve company and you have it here. I know this is not a substitute for your friend but we are all behind you and you are certainly not alone. Try and make contact with your friend. Apologise if you must if you have said anything to push her away. I repeat; do not blame yourself. Self recrimination can upset you even more. Come back if you want to. There will be other posts, so you have help. Good luck and Love. jonathan.
Hey Canon, I have lost count of so called friends that disappear when the going gets tough. It's just too much like hard work ..and I have done the same thing myself. We all know our capabilities and if we can not help then we usually know. Don't be put off by this happening. As Jonathan says, don't blame yourself. It's not your fault. Come on here and read the posts and write how you feel much love xxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Canon,
I did the same thing. I upset one of my oldest and dearest friends a couple of months ago and fretted about it. Just this morning I wrote her a letter to apologise. I wrote to ask her if she'd be my friend again. If she does, great, if she doesn't then fine, I messed up yet again. But, at least I wrote and tried and explained as best I could.
Best wishes
Dan x
Hi. really. We are not entirely responsible for our actions when in this state. "IT" tends to take over and we sometimes regret what we have said or done. You have done exactly the right thing if only for your own peace of mind. Relationships are put under a great strain with this illness, and we cannot always stop words coming. Only do our best but not blame ourselves.
Love and best wishes. jonathan.
Hi, I feel very much like I'm alot of hard work as a friend, sister and daughter, just wish people realised I dont want to be this way. I want to be the life and soul of the party, laughing an joking, living life to the full. Instead of questioning the life I have!! Ive talked myself out of going out with friends so many times over the years that eventually they stop asking. Too tired to make the effort. Dont worry hun your not alone. x
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