Still feeling anxious and tearful after 3 or4 great weeks why now???

[jaynehale36]

Don't get it... Been aving sum great therapy which had help me no end . Now out of the blue boom... Anxiety is back. Can't stop crying and being scared 4 no reason. Can't cope with this any more. Can't cope with the up and downs. I'm not strong enough for this fight ; (

[hollow]

Hey Jayne sorry to hear you're having a dip, but you know what you've had weeks of feeling good is that not something to look at and think you are strong enough? Jonathan (your cue Jonathan) is best at describing this but don't look at it as a fight as it keeps us in that negative cycle. I always look at it as nearing the end and this is the anxiety giving it's last donkey kicks trying to drag us back into the mire, into that negative cycle.

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Hi. jaynehale. YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH but NOT to 'FIGHT' "IT". I know, I know, the feelings are awful and the desire to give up is overwhelming but you have it in you to stay the course. We all have. Courage appears when least expected and you have that COURAGE deep inside you. The reason you feel as you do is because you are still SENSITISED. It is too much to expect, at this stage, to suddenly feel better. The therapy helped you. So you have 'glimpsed' the possibility of recovery. This is important. Now do not go looking for reasons for a return of anxiety. You will only flog yourself all the more and never find one. The UPS and DOWNS are very, very common in nervous illness and not nice but they can be dealt with if we do it the right way. STOP FIGHTING! Sit down and let your body slump and, if only for a moment, ACCEPT "IT" I cannot emphasis this enough. Your natural instinct is to FIIGHT. DO NOT DO THAT. Now I am going to ask you for something that is difficult. PATIENCE. TIME must be allowed to pass and any therapy no matter how good, takes time. Do not give up on your therapy, whatever it is. ALL of us here are with you. You will get more helpful blogs. Realise that they are all from those who have been there so do please believe them.. Our prayers and blessings are with you. jonathan.

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Hi Jane. I am in a similar position myself at the moment, have been fine for almost 2 years and now suddenly fallen back into this worrying, crying, panicky phase. Like Jonathan said, we are strong enough to get through this,it's just the anxiety telling us we aren't. I've taken a couple of days off work as I'm taking citalopram so waiting for that to kick in, and am also waiting for an appointment for CBT. I know it's hard to see the light at the minute, I feel the same but keep talking on here and to family as it really helps. We will all get through this together x

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Hi. gemnewby. Yes we will, together! Most important. Love. jonathan

[jaynehale36]

Thanx everyone just having bad days that are hard to handle . I've got my therapy Tues so I will talk to my psychologist about it. I know in my heart this is a blip but its still hard work. I do need to accept my condition as I do fight it. I'm just scared I'm giving in.

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Hi. jaynehale36. I feel I must come back to you. Now, the very thought that you are 'giving in' is good. OK, so give in. Do absolutely nothing other than ACCEPT. Let it all go. If you' give in' you are not FIGHTING. You have surrendered, packed up, let go; you are no longer giving "IT" the energy "IT" so badly needs to continue its upsetting work. We feed this "thing" ourselves but if we 'let go', release our grip on it we do not plunge into the hole, on the contrary, we begin the climb out. the NOW is the moment to begin ACCEPTANCE. Not tomorrow but now. Please, I am not pushing you; you must go at your own pace but at least try and begin. Talk this over with your therapist. There are different views about what I suggest and theirs may not coincide with mine. Do not be upset by this. We all aim at the same thing. Recovery. Only you know what is best for you. We are all behind you. Love and blessings. jonathan.

[john80614]

Mantra is a Sanskrit word often translated as ‘something to lean the mind upon’.

A mantra is a tool for cultivating awareness and reflection, and is one of the most common meditation techniques (along with breath meditation) used around the world today.

In mantra meditation the object of our focus (or our anchor) is a short word, phrase or sound - repeated over and over - aloud or silently in the mind. As you repeat the mantra your mind fixes on the sound and vibration, your body relaxes and your breathing slows. In time there is a sense of the breath weaving itself into the rhythm of the mantra (like a seductive song) .. and this gentle repetition stills and centres us, until eventually the mantra stops and we rest in stillness.

When we use a mantra that holds a meaning, when the words repeated have significance, then our mantra can influence our mind state, leading us away from the subconscious negative mind chatter fuelling our feelings of stress, to a sense of calmness and ease that we associate with the word ‘re-lax’.

“As we think, so we become” (Buddha).

"RE-LAX" MANTRA MEDITATION

* Find a place to sit comfortably and begin by spending a few moments just watching your breath.

* Observe your breath moving in its own natural rhythm, not trying to change or control your breath in any way. Simply being aware of the inhalation and exhalation in this moment.

* Feel your body. Feel your breath. Let go of any tension or tightness you notice. Allow your focus to gently move inward.

* When you feel ready, begin to silently note the mantra "RE-LAX". As you breathe in .. “RE” .. and as you breathe out the second syllable "-LAX". Gently in time with your breath .. “RE..LAX” “RE..LAX”.

* If you become distracted simply notice that you have been distracted and when ready return to the next inhalation and the mantra "RE ..LAX".

Before finishing, sit a little longer with your eyes closed simply enjoying the stillness and silence cultivated in your meditation. When you move back into your day, allow that peace and calm move with you, silently noting the mantra throughout the day to reconnect and remind yourself of your intention to relax.

[Blueman]

Hi Jonathan - my thoughts are with you and all of us who suffer from this.

I have had panic/anxiety attacks over the past four weeks following a major internal bleed/accident that resulted in me requiring 11 units of blood to save my bacon. Anxiety started once I was medically in the clear and recovering. I have had the full gamut of symptoms - often related to my heart and mortality but other stuff that creeps in too. Career, self esteem etc. etc. You know the score...

Had this previously about 18 years ago following a divorce (lasted full strength for about three months and then filetered away completely over the next six) and so at least I didn't have the worry that I was going mad this time! It is such a burden and seems to come just when you least need it. But it is the body/mind way of trying to help, just a little misguided. I try to connect with the symptoms, give them space to do what they want and gradually disempower them through this acceptance. Everybody has slightly different experiences of course.

During that last episode (all those years ago and no sign of them since till now) I remember the 'yo-yo' effect, as I called it, where I would be fine for days and then 'bang', back it came. This was almost more painful than ever as you felt it was all starting over again. It isn't - I think it's a good sign that it's gradually going. Your body is still sensitive and I think this is a very common thing from what I've experienced/heard and read.

Keep the therapy going - self help info is great online these days. You will get through this but at times it is the hardest thing. I am on that road myself.

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Hi Blueman. I really must apologize to all who read my blog, My blog in regard to how I felt.

This is not how I feel but how I DID feel. It was a remark made in a moment of frustration and again, I apologise. You see, I was trying to say that using a Mantra may be good for some people but, with the greatest respect, I believe it is holding out false hope for those deep in an anxiety state. I remember the time when the Maharishi something or the other was over here and charging £75 for instructions on how to use a Mantra.(Back in the 70's) I fell for it because I was in the state described in my blog and it made me worse. Why? Because I was told it would help me. When it didn't I was plunged deeper into despair.(I know, this can apply to any therapy). If anyone was upset by my blog, again I am truly sorry. And especially you Blueman. Your blog touched me deeply and if I was in the state I described then it would have helped me no end. Any therapy is useful and may help somebody, but on this site we can only speak from personal experience. Strangely, my bad mistake has produced this blog from you. A very good one may I say and to which I can relate as I am sure, will others. Sorry to all again. Love jonathan.

[Blueman]

@Jonathan - no problems at all. My response should have been addressed to Jayne anyway when I read once more... Attention span of a gnat at the moment!

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Hi. Blueman. Thanks for your reply. Do not feel so bad about it now. 'Attention span of a gnat', you should be so lucky. Mine is more of the microbe type at times!!. Best wishes. jonathan.