Good Afternoon ,
I just thought I would write about my day yesterday. It was a day I had been dreading for a month. An appointment with death you would have thought if you could have read my mind! I had an appointment at the local Job Center for a Personal Advisor Interview. I survived and am here to tell the tale lol!. After waking in cold sweats, retching, crying and getting in a right old state for a month , my day of reckoning dawned yesterday. If I had been going to be executed I couldn't have cared less! The day I had been dreading was here. I caught the bus! went to the appointment, did a bit of shopping and caught the bus home.
That was it.
How the hell can something so simple cause so much anguish, really bad anguish as well. I feel like playing " Do not forsake me oh my darling" from the film " High Noon ". Now this journey was made alone because I could not have stood having to talk to someone while undertaking it. How cruel life can be!! I can walk, talk, see, hear but I am severely restricted from living a day to day life without immense anxiety. I don't ask for much? and the only thing that spurs me on is a survival instinct, ( and who would look after my cats? ). Bless everyone on this site.........you don't know how much I rely on you. It wasn't just any old bus journey....it was blood , sweat and tears literally ....but I survived to tell the tale. Thank You from the bottom of my heart for being there for me
Much Love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx