I, like many others have all sorts of things to put up with, I honestly believe that the Life we have had sets some of us up for this Monster to appear in our lives, I had an hard Childhood for lots of reasons, and in 1977 I had an Ear Infection that made me lose my Balance for over 6 weeks, my Doctor at the time was arrogant and didn't help much at all, only when I started having Panic attacks he put me on Diazapam and there I stayed for 10 years!
In 1984 I had an Operation on my Right Ear and in 1996 I had an Operation for Cholesteatoma, called a Canal Wall down radical Mastoidectomy, a Tympanoplasty, to rebuild my Eardrum and a Ossiculoplasty to sort the little Bones out in my Ear, I was told before the Operation that I had a very small Throat and they had difficulty getting a Pipe down it but it was ok as it occured 1 in a 1000 and as long as they knew it would be alright.
No it wasn't alright, they caught my Throat and I was Vomiting Blood, and in the Recovery room I managed to pull all of the Packing from my Ear and a Needle out of my Foot, The Packing should have stayed there for 3 weeks and the Specialist was not amused that I had a 4 hour operation and then this! I had a "drop attack" for the first time the very next morning! I have never felt well since then. and along came the Monster!
I believe this Anxiety Monster is different to everyone, as I used to tell my Son, a Broken Leg is different to lots of People, to a Footballer or other active Sportsperson it is Soul destroying, to others it's bad and to some it is inconvenient, we all have our own ways of coping with things but sometimes a few tips are helpful along the way for us to try out.
I am trying to stop fighting mine as the more I let it win the more I get stressed out and feel worse, I find occupying myself as best I can lets me sometimes forget it for a short while, anything, like playing on the Xbox, playing music, watching tv etc, not always but sometimes it helps a lot, sometimes a little but any help is good to me, and other times when I push my self a bit more than I think I can it helps too.
I also am happy that I found this site as I believe knowing there are others in the same position and with tips that, hopefully can be of help to all of us.
Just to finish off................In 2004 I had Labyrinthitis and my Left Ear got much worse, now every time I swallow my Ear pops and makes my eyes move, my Eustacean Tube is blocked 99.99% of the time which causes this, I have a Nystagmus which makes my Eyes bounce from side to side, and I am Dizzy or unsteady most of the time, when I last went to the ENT I saw a Professor who was the one who told me there is nthing more that the ENT Department can do for me as I can't have an operation to cut the nerves in my left Ear as the right Ear might not compensate for the Balance and I could be much worse off! I also, since the Labyrithitis, have Nasal Polyps! oh woe is me, I can cope with most of it until the Monster pays me a visit, then I am done for for quite a while, but, with the help of my Wife of 44 years, I manage to tame the Monster for a few years but it does come back.
There are many, many People worse off than me, even though sometimes it doesn't seem possible, I am trying to think positive and fight through each day as it comes, we have an African Grey Parrot who is really, really funny, he also helps to lift my day, he sings, hums, is cheeky and acts like a 5 year old Child, amazing, until we got him 4 years ago I though parrot were like tape recorders and copied only what they hears, not so, he has a sense of humour and and intelligence I would never have believed possible, anyway, Life WILL get better I am sure for, hopefully all of us who have this nasty Monster which takes us over from time to time, I wish all of you the best of everything you need to conquer the thing!