Anxiety that’s work related

[Deligirl]

for the past several months I have felt stuck at work, I am a middle level manager and I have a lot of responsibilities for internal controls and others regulatory tasks. But I just couldn’t seem to function to get anything done, according to the timelines set by the company. I fell way behind. Anyway about two months ago I pulled myself up and I completed all the late reports, I reported them according to the company processes but I told none of my bosses. I literally finished all the reviews on September 30th. And put action plans in place to ensure it doesn’t happen again, which included training additional people to help complete these tasks when or if I’m unable to. It was very stressful doing the work as I am very hard on myself and couldn’t get over the fact that I had neglected my work for so many weeks. Not only that; but my staff had made several errors and I was finding them at a very late stage. I reconciled them all. Anyway, I took a week off to get some well needed down time. My vacation started yesterday, but I of course checked my emails and lo and behold I received a notice from the audit department that my location was being officially reviewed by the internal audit department. I haven’t been able to think straight since this announcement. I have gotten diarrhea, I haven’t slept properly, my heart is racing. I am so scared to fail this audit, even though I know I fixed and disclosed all the discrepancies. In addition, there’s been other isssues at work that have caused so much stress to me, nothing that I contributed to. Just a stressful environment. I just feel so fragile right now and a bad audit would do me in. I feel like I’ll have to resign if I don’t have a good audit and I need my job. So I don’t know what to do, I just know I need to stop this worrying ahead of the actual review , because my health is at risk and I don’t know what to do.

[Blue_81]

Hello Deligirl

I was in a stressful situation at work once. Worked in customer service but the customer’s or the high paced environment was not the issue. My coworker was the issue. He just wanted me to fail. He will just tried to look for anything that will show me that I was not doing a good job. Unfortunately, I took about a year before deciding to move departments. Im not sure what is your financial situation but nothing is worth getting you sick. If you can switch departments or jobs that would be better, in my opinion. You deserve to be happy and not overcome with stress. I regret not taking action sooner. I still have anxiety and other health issues that resulted from that. Wish I could go back and changed things or talk to myself…Hiking or talking to friends help mediate the stress. If that doesnt seem to be working you may need to visit your doctor for medication. Remember you are more important than any job. Wish you well.

[Deligirl in reply to Blue_81]

Thank you so much for this. The truth is I love my job, but one of my managers is so untrustworthy, she will throw you under the bus once it will make her look good. I had a very upsetting experience with her last week and I haven’t gotten over it yet and then the announcement the audit it just threw me off. I am trying so hard to keep clear perspective, but my body’s fight or flight response is overwhelming. But you are right I need to figure out what my next moves are because I cannot continue to operate like this,

[Blue_81 in reply to Deligirl]

I was happy what I was doing but overall I like all the flexibility my company provides. Yup that was my coworker who was training me, He would just throw me under bus constantly or any opportunity he had. Once, he knew I was leaving department he started being nice to me for the last few weeks. Try to do alot of self care in the meantime. Your body needs it specially when you go back. Try to not check your emails or go camping so you can disconnect.