some days are better than others.
I wake up every day with a sick feeling in my stomach.
I struggle a lot in big groups of people especially if the people are loud. I’m not really sure why I struggle so much in that. Part of me thinks it’s cause I don’t think I’m very interesting in conversations, I’m not funny and I don’t want attention on me.
I usually drink a lot of alcohol to get confidence.
I started a new job 3 months ago. I do like the job but I have to go to the office only once a week. Every time I dread it. Usually when I go there after a few hours in I settle in. Yesterday I broke and sat on my own on a different floor. I told my bosses about my issues which they were really understanding.
Im determined now to get better and past these issues.
Over the months I have avoided all situations that make me anxious. I rarely go out with my friends unless It’s an occasion like a birthday.
I don’t think it helps hiding away cause I’m not solving the situation but I also know I can’t push myself too much either.
it’s so strange the smallest things can set me off.
I am seeking help with medication and therapy.
does anyone have tips that may help?