DVT anxiety

[hollyrain]

After having a niggly ache to my leg which I'd ignored for a couple of weeks as just getting old....just turned 60...on Friday night I experienced intense pain in that same calf which frightened me. The calf is bigger than the other but has been thus for years. Got seen on Saturday, DDimer positive, but only just up, started on Apixaban today, waiting for scan. Discomfort tolerable when walking but builds up when standing or lying.

I'm overweight....my fault I know...so I put the blame entirely at my door. But I am terrified. Terrified that clot will break away and kill me. I've seen it and it happens so quickly. Terrified that despite never having had an accident, a broken bone or a wound that required stitching, I will get one and just bleed.

I also read in the literature they provided me with yesterday, that the scan is groin to knee.... but my pain etc is calf and lower leg predominantly. I'm terrified they won't scan the right bit and will say I don't have a clot so can come off thinners etc......and it will kill me.

I know I need to get a grip but I'm finding it really difficult. Has anybody experienced similar who can reassure me?

Many thanks and good health to you x

[hollyrain]

Thank you so much, I can't tell you how much that helps. I've told my hubs how to unlock phone to inform my friends, how to get dog food, treats, do training etc etc......just in case I peg it! I am a born worrier, and this has blown my health anxiety off the roof!

I will make sure I point out to the sonographer exactly where my pain is. I hope you ate doing well x

[Gleddoch]

Hi holly I had my second dvt last year and just like you I was put on apixiban I was so worried mine too would break away but my consultant put my mind at rest by saying if it is going too travel it does it within 48hrs and now you on apixiban it unlikely too clot anywhere else x

[hollyrain in reply to Gleddoch]

Thank you so much for that - had 3 doses of Apixaban now, so am feeling that bit more positive. HA is such a dreadful thing isn't it - it plays with our minds! Even when we're asleep!! I have gastritis and have had an acute attack late November which is only just settling - I know the pain well, but have this last 24hrs convinced myself it was a clot moving to my lungs! My scan is tomorrow, I think once that is over and I have chance to properly know whats what, I will feel better. Your consultant has put my mind at rest too, I hope you are doing well xx

[Gleddoch in reply to hollyrain]

Not doing too good every twinge I feel is driving me mad

[hollyrain in reply to Gleddoch]

It's the pits. I'm in bed already with a discomfort in my throat and dead centre of my chest, and I'm terrified. I know it's a mix of anxiety and my gastritis and a good glue of Gaviscon advance will help, but your mind really goes into overdrive. I hope I've not made things worse for you by my post, and you soon feel better xx

[Gleddoch in reply to hollyrain]

I have convinced myself I have motor neurons and it's driving me mad trying so hard too get out these feelings

[AquaSeaPearl]

I completely understand how you feel! I am just like you, always expecting the worst when it comes to aches and pains. We really don't want to die! However, I have learned to put my trust in God. He is there to help us through anything. I am not saying that something might not kill us, but I am saying that we can trust and accept things and feel more secure about our future if we just let the Lord take over our fears. I'll be praying for you, too.

[hollyrain in reply to AquaSeaPearl]

thank you, I'm glad you can find comfort and guidance in your faith. It really helps to be able to put a positive light on things, although sometimes it really isn't that easy. I hope you are doing well xx