racing thoughts

[LonelySunflower]

here I go again… it’s been a very long time since I had physical symptoms due to anxiety. I did therapy for almost 2 years. I went from no job, no school, no social life, I would spend most of my time in my room sleeping as much as possible. To working and going to school at the same time. I go to stores by myself. But now I’m feeling miserable at work. It is so hard to stay without feeling like running away. I’ve lied so many times about being sick so I didn’t have to go. I got covid and was happy just because i wouldn’t have to go to work. I don’t want to go through panic attacks ever again. It scares me. I don’t know what to do. I feel stupid for not being able to control my emotions. I don’t want to get fired. I want to keep my only job I’ve worked for more than a year. 😔

[Ewloe]

Hi lonelysunflower it feels wrong typing that name, it’s totally negative you should change it to big beautiful sunflower as that’s where your aiming to be. Positive language in your head is always better than negative. It’s the first time I’ve posted on anxiety support I’m on heart related sites usually. But I can relate to the words you’ve used. I’m at a different phase in my life to you. The feeling’s that comes with anxiety are awful and those panic/anxiety attacks are not good. My life has been turned totally upside down. I’ve made a decision to go on anti anxiety medication but this isn’t easy due to heart issues and it’s had to be sorted by the hospital consultant. But he doesn’t prescribe it he writes to gp for that. So a month later I’ve still not started them but hopefully the gp will actually sort it this week. It’s generalised anxiety and dealing with the gps causes it. I’ve decided to try medication as life is too short and I want to enjoy it as much as I can. Tell that voice in your head to use positive language, you can go to work, you can do things, give yourself a positive name- the place your aiming to get to. Your younger than me and you can do it. Good luck.

[Ryanlion]

Its time to get some extra help, youve done marvelously so far, but set backs do occur. Nip it in the bud. Like Ewloe says a little medication for a while could do the trick. It doesnt have to be forever and you may only need a small dose. Remember it is an illness of the mind so dont feel stupid. Its very hard when in fear to control our thoughts. I would suggest mindfulness or meditation when you are back in control to help with further setbacks if you have them. I hope this helps& remember your not alone.

[Babe1213]

Take control - only you can do this. Find a friend who will not judge you, but will support and enable you. I understand how you feel, I've been in that lonely place, in fact I spent all of my school life alone - no one would play with me, come near me or talk to me. It was many years before I was ever able to make a friend. I am 74 now, and am confident - most of the time, my father in law to be - was outside the church waiting to off me £200 not to marry his son. this figure went up to £250. to leave my husband and baby after she was born. I have never felt so lonely, but was determined to run the race, we have been married for 54 years now, 15 grandchildren, 4 great grandchildren - two more on way. It's up to you! And change your name to something like Happy Sunflower.

[Agora1 in reply to Babe1213]

:)xx

[Snoflake]

Hello,

I don’t have any advice as I am going through the same ups and downs. Right now I am on an up but I fear the down swing every day. Waiting for the perverbial shoe to drop. I have started changing my habits one by one however starting with my nutrition and physical health. This seems to be working a bit by bit. I do know that I constantly bottle things up because the only soul I trust and confide in happens to be be the source of a lot of sadness and anger inside. So I just keep everything to myself until I have an major anxiety event. I hope you can find some relief and know that you are definitely not alone.