Haven’t been here in a while; anxiety is still here

[Kat63]

Right now, my anxiety is mostly job-related, but it could grab onto another part of my life at any time.

I was pretty active here three years ago, and I really thought I was losing my mind. At that time, I had recently been fired from a job and was in the process of reconciling with my partner of many years. He and I had some problems, I moved out for a while, but then we agreed to try again.

And I did find another job.

However, I was laid off after a year; then got a temporary job for 6 months; then got another temporary job, which I left after 6 months because another employer offered me a 30% pay raise and better health insurance. But I think the real reason was that my boss really thought a lot of me, and I was afraid I would let her down.

Now I’m 6 months into Job #4, and I feel totally overwhelmed, like I’m the dumbest person on the team. I don’t want to do things because I’m scared of looking stupid in front of everybody else. I know my attitude isn’t that good, either. I’m scared of being fired, and I’m looking for yet another job.

The past 7 or 8 years of my life has had too much instability. My partner and I had a pretty bad rift from 2014 to 2019 (although we have now been back together, living together again, for 3 years.) I went through menopause in 2016 (luckily, not very difficult), my mother died of cancer in 2017, and I’ve had all this job instability.

My anxiety seems to go away for periods of time, but now it’s back. Mostly job-related. And the world political situation doesn’t really help. I know I’m better off than a lot of other people, but I feel anxious.

Thanks for letting me vent.

[Bella_lee]

Hi @Kat63 I'm so sorry you've had to deal with so much and I do understand how overwhelming this can be. Sometimes just having a listening ear to express how you're feeling is helpful, so please feel free to vent when you need to. We are all on here to support each other.

With everything going on in the world now, I wake up every morning and say a prayer and thank God for his mercies. I do hope peace comes to everyone, we need it.

Stay strong and hopeful, you can overcome this again and keep moving forward.

Wishing you much joy and peace now and in the future and of course much more stability in your job.

[Kat63 in reply to Bella_lee]

Thank you!