Thought I had this beat

[Rosiemarie82]

I haven't been on here in I don't know how long. After a nearly 2 year battle, I had been symptom-free long enough for my doctor to recomend lowering my meds. We discussed it, and I decided to start lowering the dosage after the new year. Anyway, I got a phone call from my dad's nursing facility yesterday, informing me that he has tested positive for Covid-19.

Not the news I needed to hear. I tossed and turned all night last night. Despite that, I got up, got dressed, and went to school to help with carnival set up. On my drive, panic hit. I lost my breath, my chest was aching, mind racing....all the feels

I had to literally talk myself down in my car.

In the past, this would have defeated me. I would have gone home, or to the emergency room before Covid was a thing.

So while I have taken extra medication tonight to help me stay calm, I am still proud that I didn't let anxiety control me today.

I am also getting close to my 2 year anniversary being smoke-free. I am hoping that threshold will help with the anxiety too.

[kenster1]

a couple of testing experiences and although slipping back into bad habits you came through and these are good signs of your progress in the right direction.

[Agora1]

Rosiemarie82 I am sorry your dad has tested positive for Covid. I wish him well towards

his recovery. There will always be something in life that comes up which can trigger our anxiety. Today was one of those days for you. The fact is, you handled it well. You have every right to be proud of yourself. Also congrats on your 2 years anniversary in being smoke free. Stay Strong, Stay Positive and Stay Safe. xx

[Rosiemarie82 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you ♡