Next year

[Pizzaparty]

I’ll be 25 next year and all i want to do is show some sign of growth and maturity, all my life I’ve been told that i was “mature for my age” but i dont even know what that means anymore .. im inexperienced to a lot of things in life and mentally i feel as though i think like a child .. my inner child never quite grew up , and i fee as if treat my situations around me as if im still in middle school or high school, ill often even dream about my old schools and I’ve had this problem from adolescence, i quite honestly feel stuck and everytime i think I’ve had a breakthrough i find myself back here , emotionally distraught and unhappy . I also acknowledge that I mention “i feel” a lot when stating an issue and am quite aware that feelings aren’t realities... but why do i allow my feelings to get the best of these situations