hi everyone I just need to confess that although I swore I would never google symptoms again after the terrible anxiety I had a few weeks ago, I did last night. .. and it didn't make me feel any bette.r!!!!
I think I do it to try to get reassurance that the symptoms I am getting can have an explanation other than what I catastrophise it is and without the doctor suggesting tests that I will then have to wait for, continually fearing the phone call with the results. I don't even believe the results if they are clear ..even though I have very sympathetic doctors.
I have really built up a phobia to phone calls now and often switch them off completely ..not good ..as it leaves me even more isolated.
I am just a nervous wreck most of the time. I am on medication and have tried various drugs and psychological approaches over the years but I feel I am just battling against myself now until I die.... there is nothing for me.
My family are a fantastic support to me and I am not rich but have everything I need, I live in a beautiful place but I feel guilty that I am not thankful. I am just not interested in anything at all and things I used to like to do. I have to force myself to do but don't enjoy.
I know just what I need to do..get things checked out by the doctor, practise mindfulness more, go out for walks , get myself involved in something purposeful, but I still just feel it is all pointless and I am in the waiting room to die. ( not that I would ever take my own life...so don't go calling the ambulance!!!)
Sorry to rant but I know there are others out there who feel the same and will understand.i hate being so depressed and negative, I know it is not good for my friends a nd family to be around me.
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Literally read this and felt like you were talking about me. I feel exactly the same way. Also know that walks exercises and meditation will help but I never try as I just think what's the point it won't help. I suffer from extreme health anxiety and panic disorder and spend hours on Google making myself physically ill thinking about what I could have. Sending you hugs it's so bloody hard x
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