Weakened upon awakening

[Starrlight]

I woke up to find myself weak, brain feeling scrambled and needing to believe I would make it through without loosing myself to the strange senstations and ways of thinking.

I feel as if eyes are watching my every move. And I want to hide away. I want to retreat and relax but wherever I go, there I am. I’m tired of the way I think; mind racing with one negative thought after another so that I can’t even keep up to counteract them with positives. I have gotten stuck in a chaotic space in time.

I pray I land softly onto happier days. It’s hard to keep up and I fear I am letting go too soon, letting the pain take over because I’m just to tired to fight.

I hope the angels can help me stay awake here until it’s time to go home where I can have my dreams return to me.

Blessings to you. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

[Starrlight]

Thank you my friend. I keep worrying about money and kids and my weaknesses. I think I need to switch focus to blessings and strengths.

[Starrlight]

Yes! 😆 thank you

[newbie1956]

Star,

Life can seen cruel. I just lost my only sister 6 days ago. Pancreatic cancer.

But her faith was strong and I'm so proud of her. She said GOD was just a prayer away.... And we knew He was hearing our prayers.

Her 6 adult children never left her side.

Please look to the One who gives comfort, confidence and joy.

Agape

[Starrlight in reply to newbie1956]

I’m very sorry for tour loss. I’ve been praying too.

[newbie1956 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you, Star

[Luna-blade]

I understand what you’re going through. I tried every way possible to fight off my pure ocd but couldn’t do it without meds. I was prescribed new med this week and it’s helping me sleep and shut off my mind from working all the time. If you are not on meds be glad that you are strong enough to resist those thoughts. Keep positive and faithful God never leaves anyone unattended

[Starrlight in reply to Luna-blade]

Thank you. I am on meds. Some days are just harder than others I guess for everyone.

[Luna-blade in reply to Starrlight]

Ups and downs exactly. Keep strong 💪🏻

[Starrlight in reply to Luna-blade]

Thank you soooo!

[Agora1]

Starrlight, I worry about you as well as your virtual family does on this site.

I hear your pain through each and every word. I wish I could find an answer for your worries. They are draining you emotionally and physically.

Please reach out for some professional help. It won't solve your worries but make them more acceptable to live with for you and your children.

I care Starrlight. The time will come soon enough for us to go home. Right now, we

need to find a way for you to breathe in life and some joy which you so richly deserve. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

Thanks for listening. I’ve had some joy lately I just typically post when I’m down. I am having a bad day. So much pressure in my head. I’m sick. I’m tired. But there have been more good times recently than before since I went on a few new meds. I recently quit drinking so I thought I’d be feeling better than this. Maybe tomorrow will be a good day.

I won’t talk to my therapist until the 22nd but I will be writing down things to discuss.

I will be okay.

[Agora1 in reply to Starrlight]

Starrlight, I'm glad to hear you started new medications. Give it time dear... xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

Thanks Agora! Thanks for caring about me. ❤️

[sophie4]

Hello dearStarrlight,

Where are you???? You sure o have a friend who is hoping with all my might that you land softly on happier days.

I've been thinking of you.

sophie4

[Starrlight in reply to sophie4]

❤️ thank you so much

How are you doing?