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[DoggieLoverbon]

I’m not sure what to do, my anxiety felt like it was getting 10x better - i was still worried if little things happened but I wouldn’t ponder on them. And I started feeling pretty sick, lightheaded everyday, upset stomach, just out of it. Which part of me thinks the lightheaded ness is in my head. When I told my doctor he asked basic questions about what happens when I’m lightheaded and nothing serious does. He said nothing I’ve told him is alarming. If that makes sense. I ended up going to the doctors because my lymph nodes had been swollen for a month, and they took blood, I’ve also had bad twitching. In my lips, arms, legs, eyes, everywhere pretty much, even my stomach sometimes. And I mentioned that at my doctors also, he pretty much wrote it off as anxiety, which would kind of make sense because it only started when i noticed my anxiety getting bad again. Long story short, he thinks I might have an infection/virus in my system that’s been going untreated. Which would make sense, but it worries me at the same time that it may be something worse. I’m still waiting on the results, which also leaves the mind for wonder. So overall I’m just freaking out on the inside trying to make everything okay on the outside. I have a checkup appointment in 2 weeks, and I think I’m going to bring up the twitching again if it doesn’t stop. I just need some advice because at the moment it feels like everything is falling apart, and I’m only 19, it’s so hard to enjoy life when you’re literally scared to live. Sorry this is so long and dramatic, I just don’t have anyone to talk to or who understands me at this point that can talk reason into my head.

[leveller]

hi, you used the word "worried" a lot in your post. I do this too, worry about everything. Might be worth getting some therapy/help to help to control the worrying? I have Generalise Anxiety Disorder so I do tend to worry about everything - and it makes no difference! worrying about it doesn't stop things happening and it spoils the good stuff. So getting help to control that worry is good step forward.

In the meantime try to distract yourself a little (excerise is good, reading, tv, chatting to a friend) if you take your mind off it it may decrease a little.

Also accept that you worry about things. This is fine and normal. Accept this gives you feelings (in your tummy, in your head etc) and accept that's a normal part of anxiety. The more I worry about worrying, the more it makes me worry, so when I accept that it's okay to feel a bit weird (especially if the doctor has told you they can't see any physical issues) then you take the power of the worry away and for me it was almost like magic once I got into the habit of acceptance that I didn't worry so much.

I hope this makes sense and I hope you can get some help to feel better soon.

[DoggieLoverbon in reply to leveller]

I would love to go to therapy but my insurance doesn’t cover it and I’m not in the financial spot to afford it honestly. It’s 100$ a lesson at my old one, and she made me really uncomfortable and they want me to go every week. This app is closet I have to feeling like I’m not completely crazy.

[leveller in reply to DoggieLoverbon]

hello again, okay, your system is a bit different to the UK where we can go to the NHS (National Health Service) to get free counselling :(. however can I suggest that you go on our NHS website and look at all the useful resources they have for dealing with generalised anxiety disorder? You can log on there for free and there are lots of booklets/videos that might help:

for example a basic high level summary: nhs.uk/conditions/generalis...

and this one that has specific topics: web.ntw.nhs.uk/selfhelp/

and another: nhsinform.scot/illnesses-an...

i hope these might help a little but if they are on an NHS site they have been approved and have been shown to work. so you could use these resources for free to help a little?

[DoggieLoverbon in reply to leveller]

Thank you!