Chewing gum

[Moon_B]

I have emetophobia and I could say I am also germaphobe in general on top of it.

Today I went out to get my mind out of my fear of catching a stomach bug. I know I have to face it and keep living so I had to go out to do my grocery anyway. I took the time to walk there and change my mind.

At the store I look at some products and I pick them up in my hands to read the labels. I pick up a small gift set and I felt something rubbery on my finger. I turned it around and I saw a chewing gum, gray from all the dust around. Obviously some uncivil person put it on the gift set on purpose. I was disgusted, angry and scared. It triggered me so badly. I walked home all tense worrying that I will be sick for the night or the upcoming days.

I got home and washed my hands obsessively more than once. I still couldn't calm down even after the hand washing because I know some bacteria are resistant. I wish I stayed home safely.

I am even more anxious than normal because my mother is coming tonight from another city to visit me and tomorrow we planned something nice together and I bought tickets for an event, now I am scared I'll get sick and won't be able to go with her. It's been more than half a year since I saw her and we prepared to spend a nice day together (tomorrow) and I don't want to spoiled it by being sick and having panic attacks.

I just wanted to get it out of my chest. Thank you for reading. Happy Holidays to everybody

[Icanbeathis2016]

I definitely know what it's like to fear getting sick. I've become so paranoid of every little thing. Things that I know for sure I would once be able to brush off and keep living, now has become my worse fears. I'm afraid of getting sick from food, outside things, germs, or anything that could make me sick from eating or touching it. It's been times I've literally convinced myself I was gonna get sick to a point I felt that way mentally and was scared.

This makes our lives that much more complicated. Whatever you do. Dont miss this time with your mom. You'll feel just as bad for not going. You'll be glad and proud that you did.

Wish you the best..

[Moon_B in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Thank you for your support,

I wish you the best too!

[Dolphin14]

I always have hand sanitizer in my purse and car. Just a thought, maybe that will help settle some of your fears.

I hope you are able to spend today with your mom. These times we spend together are very precious.

🎅🏻🌲

[Moon_B in reply to Dolphin14]

Yes good point, I typically have some but not in the bag I brought I forgot it. I am having a good time with her, thank you for your kind wishes.

Happy Holidays!