Short background: I was on lexapro for anxiety for over a year and it worked very well. Doctor switched me to Zoloft because they were concerned about my depression. I have been on it now for a little over a week
I don't know where this post is going to end up going, I'm just typing because I have so much anxiety and so many thoughts that I can't keep up with it and I think if I don't put it all out there, it will build up inside of me and i will have an awful panic attack.
I feel like there is a ball in my chest, and someone keeps blowing air into it and I keep telling them please stop it's going to explode but they won't stop. I can't eat still. I'm able to drink water, thank God. It also feels like I'm standing on top of a cliff, looking down. You know that feeling in your stomach you get? That's how I feel all the time lately. I see a therapist, looking for a new one because she doesn't help. I try to talk to those I trust but then, out of love, they ask question to try to understand and I just get mad and frustrated and yell at them, so I try not to talk to too many people when I'm this anxious. I want to cry and scream and throw things and punch walls just to get the anxiety out. I'm losing myself again and that in itself gives me anxiety. I remember vividly how it felt a few years ago to want my anxiety to go away so badly that I threatened my life. I don't want to get to that point again. I freaked out a few weeks ago and went to the psychiatric ER because I was scared it was going to get to that point one day. I ended up being fine, but I don't want to go to the ER for a false alarm because they'll admit me next time. I've gone way too many times in the past for them not to. And I don't blame them, that's their job. They want to help and prevent stuff. But I don't want to be admitted. I don't live alone and my parents check up on me a lot and I'm not a threat to anyone. The worst thing I've done to hurt myself if I just take a screw driver and hit myself with the handle until all of the anxiety I feel goes away. It's so messed up that this is how we think sometimes. That it's better to feel physical pain than emotional. I know I'm not the only one who feels like this. It's not fair that normal people can go through life and none of this is a concern to them. They don't have to be worried about if they're going to have a breakdown at the slightest inconvenience. It's not fair and I hate all of this.
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Hello, I myself had an awful experience with Zoloft and ultimately ended up taking Wellbutrin (until recently)which works for me. I was experiencing manic episodes on Zoloft within week two, people will tell you that it takes a few weeks for it to kick in. That is not true for everyone. I know everyone reacts different to meds and I’ve never been in your shoes.
I am male, 34yrs. I ended up switching doctors until I found one who really listens to me and doesn’t bs me. I suggest everyone do the same. She ran tests until finally she found I have hormone imbalance. Now I take testosterone and I feel so good I’ve quit meds. Physical fatigue, anxiety, depression, lack of appetite, no energy, ALL GONE. Male or female, you could have a simple imbalance. Keep trying!! Don’t give up!! There is an answer!!!
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