Since I discovered that I had an anxiety disorder, I've found that some of the things that I am anxious about are pretty embarrassing. The one that causes the most problems, is my anxiety about getting gas for my car. I have no explanation on why exactly this makes me anxious. All I can think of is that it was very nerve-racking when I first learned and for some reason it stuck. The few times I have gotten gas have been so anxiety inducing that I was exhausted the rest of the day. I honestly think that the reason it is so hard to get over this is because it's not something I have to do every day so there isn't the repetition I usually need to overcome things. Luckily, I have very understanding parents who help me probably more than they should with my anxiety. Since I started driving about two-three years ago, my dad has been the one to get me gas. At first it just made sense because he was driving my car a lot more than me, but even after I started driving it more he would get me gas. I apologize profusely each time he has to get it for me but he always assures me that it isn't an issue and my mom tells me that she has weird things she doesn't like to do either. Even though they're understanding, not everyone is. The other day we had to write a "what are you thankful for..." essay for school and I jokingly said that I was going to write about how my dad got me gas. My friend looked over at me with a look of almost disgust and said "You have gotten yourself gas before right???" like the idea that I might not was totally insane. I told her that I had and she literally sagged with relief at me admitting that, which I thought was overdramatic. I then went on to say that my dad gets both me and my mom gas a lot because he is a good man and likes to do stuff for us.
What's annoying to me is that when someone asks why I don't get myself gas and I say "because it makes me anxious." they see that as it is something I find scary when in fact that isn't how anxiety works. Because people don't often understand the world of anxiety disorders, I think they feel like those of us that have them are overdramatic and...well...big babies. I am fully capable of getting gas and when it is situation where my parents are out of town or busy, I am okay to get it myself. It's the choice to do that is the problem. So what is something that you're anxious about that makes you embarrassed? And are you able to have someone help you with it?