Do you think I have the worst anxiety that ever happened? Am i going to go crazy?

I truly feel im losing my mind.

[EleanorRose]

Hey.

I’m not sure if we’ve spoken before. I can certainly empathise with that feeling of thinking you’re going crazy. What’s been happening recently?

[lofeoutthere]

I went through a period of high intense anxiety that I thought I was literally going into psychosis. In fact the dr did diagnose me with anxiety with psychotic features...she said not to worry it’s just a high very high level of anxiety. I know it’s so so hard but do deep breathing and journal. If your asking if your going crazy your not it just feels ljke it!

[Hidden]

I'm lightheaded all. The. Time. Always feel like im on the verge of passing out or like I'm drunk. Can rarely leave my house. Don't recognize the things around me.

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Hidden]

Felt very similar things I can assure you it is a stress response caused by panic disorder

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

I absolutely can empathise with that I gave thought about ten million times I’m loosing my mind I suppose the only advice I can give that helped me through was I thought people who have lost their minds rarely have any clue that they have and secondly reminding myself constantly how powerful my mind is especially a stressed anxious mind and how it’s a common anxiety symptom and it’ll pass

[Hidden]

I wanted to go to a festival today.. Got all dressed up and everything. But i cant walk through it. And i feel crazy like nothing is real or im in another world. I cant do things i want to do and that i used to be able to do and thats what hurts the most.

[Indigojoe in reply to Hidden]

This has been a repeating theme for me for years.

I have full intention of going out to a festival and totally having a great time and then " can't".........

What do you think is really at the core of this?

[Aliciar in reply to Hidden]

I know this is going to sound hard a difficult but I have a fear of dieing having a heart attack. 2 years ago i was in and out of the er and had ever heart test done that could possible be done. I was told my heart is fine. So with talking to a therapist the best thing that has helped me is to face my fear. Every time I get that chest tightening feeling or a sharp pain as much as my fear is telling me to run to a hospital I do the opposite I exercise. I get my heart rate elevated. I prove to myself that it’s not my heart and slowly it starts working and my panic calms down. So maybe for you the first step would be just walking out your door or getting into the car to go somewhere

[Indigojoe in reply to Aliciar]

that is impressive! How did your therapist get you to understand the " doing the opposite"

[Aliciar in reply to Indigojoe]

It took about 3 months of going twice a month to actually calm down enough to listen to him and get it. Then I just started trying it it didn’t work every time but about 6 months of trying it I learned to trust the process and I was going broke from er visits. My anxiety has flared back up over the past 2 months bc I came off my ssri bc I thought i was cured (dummy me thinking that) 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Just tonight I felt my chest burning and tightening my first thought was call 911 so I went to try a bath but knew that wouldn’t work so I ran a mile on the treadmill I still fell the chest tightness but my head is now telling me if I can get my heart rate up to 150 and feel no pain at all then I’m ok now.

Anxiety is such a head game bc it can make you feel so many different and real things

[Indigojoe in reply to Aliciar]

i am right with you. Bravo to you for sticking it out and making the hard changes!

[Hidden in reply to Indigojoe]

the core of my anxiety is definitely losing control. whether that be dying, passing out, feeling out of it, freaking out in front of people, not perceiving reality the way i want to.. that's why i'm always so scared.

[Indigojoe in reply to Hidden]

I have that too.

NOT sure where it comes from or what the seed of it is, for me.

Clearly my childhood was dicey, because my sister has similar issues " now". She had NOTHING as a kid, I was always nervous. A little scared of field trips, not a fan of staying with other families for weekend trips, etc...........

Had trouble in school as a kid.

I can freak out ( inside ) from the same stuff you mentioned.

Do you have any clue what it's from?

[Hidden]

What medications are you on?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

i'm on 20 mg prozac, 1 mg of xanax 4 times a day (i know its a lot, please don't say it lol i'm already anxious about it), buspar 15 mg a day and i'm weaning off of abilify and effexor.

[Agora1]

someone, let me assure you that you aren't going to go crazy.

You do not have the worst anxiety there ever was. I understand in that

you feel out of control, that you feel out of it and that you are not perceiving

reality the way you want to. I'd be scared too and I was frighten in how I felt.

At the time I was placed on so many drugs that I didn't know what day it was

or what time it was. I would go in and out of sleep and wake up terrified and

start crying and screaming "I'm afraid". I knew I wasn't crazy but those around

me thought I was and that certainly didn't help in being put down.

How could I not help but feel like this when the drugs I was taking where doing

their job in spacing me out and not making me feel as if I cared. The only difference

was that I did care and so my anxiety manifested itself 10 times over. Most of it being

from what the drugs were doing to my brain. You are in a cycle of fear being caused

by anxiety as well as the meds that are suppose to take care of it.

I would bet my bottom dollar that is what is going on. You are not crazy by any means.

I would think, as with myself, it was situational anxiety keeping you feeling like you might

pass out, you might die as well as being in a high state of fear all the time. Then you take

the meds you've been prescribed to help you but they tend to make you feel even more

lightheaded and dizzy and not all there and the fear continues.

I've been right where you are. Something has to change in how you perceive and handle

the situational anxiety. Also learning to find different tools that can work for you in settling you down. As you wean off some of these meds, take into consideration that

the weaning process will heighten you anxious state as well but at least you will be going

in the right direction and getting off them.

Keep using the forum for support, you need that right now. We may not be professionals

but our own experiences with severe and profound anxiety may allow you to believe that it will get better and better in time. I'm always here to support you as well as the other

members who you know care about you as well. You are not alone. You are going to be okay. Hang in there and do not give up. xx

[Ragdoll15 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you agora, I found this very helpful as I am also in a bad place at the moment!

[Agora1 in reply to Ragdoll15]

We are always here to listen ward. It's okay to take our hand as you

walk this bumpy road. xx

[laruecharles]

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[Tapon020]

I am going through this too!! Can relate to your thoughts. Horrible , but this will pass away. Chek with your doctor and update us. Have plenty of sleep....