I have social anxiety and I don’t know what to do!

[sjulian926]

Hi! I have always been shy growing up and I’ve broken out of most of it, however I do still get it sometimes pretty bad and I don’t know what to do about this situation. Im scared to go to my boyfriend’s moms house. So the first time he ever took me to his moms house, I had the worst experience ever and I haven’t gone back since because I’m nervous! My boyfriend has an Asian mom. She doesn’t hear or see very well, and I wasn’t nervous around her specifically, I’m more nervous because my boyfriends brother also lives there with all of his kids. So I walked in, and I said hi to his brother. His brother said “waddup” and that was about it. His brother has a son who is actually my age, and his son’s girlfriend also lives there. I was sitting down awkwardly and my boyfriend kept getting up and wandering around the house but I didn’t wanna follow him everywhere he went like a lost dog so I kind of just stayed in the same spot. The son came out and so did his girlfriend, they both saw me and did not say a word. It was like I was invisible!! So that made it even worse on me.. again, my boyfriend got up a lot and wandered and kinda just left me there which pissed me off so at that point I just wanted to leave. His brother has young kids too and one of the little kids kept talking to me so I kinda just talked to him lol. Anyways, it was so awkward for me. I guess just because they didn’t really talk to me and that made me feel more awkward.. after we left I told my boyfriend how uncomfortable I was and he apologized for leaving me, he’s just so used to his house that he didn’t realize he was doing it. But ever since I haven’t gone back and he knows I don’t like going there. He’s a mommas boy and I feel bad about resisting to go there again because i don’t want him to feel like he can’t see his mom when I’m around, which is kinda how he feels bc I don’t like to go.. he told me he wouldn’t leave me again but I’m just so nervous to go back! And one of my worst fears is sitting down eating dinner with all of them because I’ll feel even more awkward sitting at the table and nobody really says anything to me. I just don’t know how to go about it! What should I do? I care about my boyfriend and I want to overcome this because I know he wants me to go see his mom with him... but I’m just so damn nervous! Sorry for the book lol