Zoloft withdrawal day 19

Yesterday was soooo bad. Panic attacks, face pressure, then a wave of depression after my workout...? I have never been depressed so this was.. shocking. And the reason I got off Zoloft.

So today, I was very anxious. Nightmares about my boyfriend’s roommate. I took a sick day just to take it easy and pack. Took a Lorezepam and it didn’t do much, which was shocking. So that’s how I know Zoloft is really still there. It just made me feel fuzzy. I spent the day looking up psychosis and it freaked me out. I know I don’t have it but I’m so ready to get awaaaaay from feeling weird from Zoloft.

On my way to Boston! My boyfriend texted me saying he’s going to talk to his roommate about her behavior towards me. Thaaaat gives me anxiety. Then my sister flipped out at me because she lent me money and I haven’t been paid yet and I’m waiting on my sick leave’s back pay. Me and my bf are going to Boston Calling and I got tix almost 6 months ago. So she gave me anxiety. She told me to get a “second job” (I have 3) maybe if “you stop talking about it your health shit it’ll go away”. I told her I’ve been open with her about my finances and her saying this in the group chat was so embarrassing and rude, and she never paid me back for money I leant her and I didn’t act like this. She got so nasty so I asked her to look up agoraphobia. She got mad my boyfriend booked me a trip to NC to go mining for crystals as a surprise and I was like “I didn’t pay for that!!” My god. So that was more anxiety.

It just hurts because when any of the other siblings go through something, everyone is there for them. If ONLY I could just stop thinking about anxiety! She keeps telling me to “go to the gym”. Ok. I’m proud when I can leave my house. Idk, I find that when you’re most anxious, or sad, you find out who is really there. I still love my sister but I had to block her number because she started swearing at me. She was probably drinking again. Ugh

[SxufferingSxoul]

Keep fighting through this, I know you can do it! Keep in mind that you have always been okay after these panic attacks, and I always get these massive waves of depression! Also, a week before menstruation time often tends to worsen any anxiety/depression symptoms which is totally normal, okay? Try to worry less hun, try doing other things, not just going to the gym. Maybe download a game that requires a lot of focus? So that when you’re at home and cannot go out, and get an anxiety attack, you can play that game and put most of your focus on it rather than the good old anxiety or depression waves! I promise you’re going to be okay! It will be over soon. Also your sister is a bit too harsh to you, which is unnecessary and doesn’t really help, if I were you I would tell her that her anger and aggression is unnecessary! And that you can’t help these symptoms, and never mean to bother her. My online bestfriend usually gets angry at me when I start ranting about worrying about having a disease but I always tell him how it hurts more than it helps and he stopped, I hope. I will always be here for you!

Hugs xx

[Kkimm]

So sorry to hear what a bad day you have had.