So today had ups and downs. I was pretty moody this AM about some personal insecurities and issues - it seems like Zoloft made my reactions react x10. I don’t randomly get mood swings now but I definitely get very short tempered when I am.
I started freaking myself out the other day when thinking of psychosis again. I started imagining the sound of sirens and it’s like it gets stuck in my head and I get terrified of auditory hallucinations. I can stop the thinking at will but man.. I freak myself out.
The dreams are slowly getting less vivid. Yayyyy.
Took a nap today with my boyfriend and either had one of those hypnagogic auditory hallucinations (I heard my name whispered) OR my boyfriend talked in his sleep. I asked him and he wasn’t sure but he said he was talking to me in his dream so it’s possible. I know hypnagogic hallucinations are totally normal. But still, freaky. My boyfriend gets them all the time.
Ummm what else... I def notice my senses more alert at times. My sense of smell is ridiculous and my hearing seems like very tinnitus-y and sharp.
I watched a vid of TLE today when worrying and the guy’s recounts actually don’t sound similar to my issues.. so I honestly think mine are DP/DR.
Next step is conquering my mental health fears. I’m kinda afraid Zoloft triggered another mental health issue but I know the chemicals are just adjusting.
We went to Ulta today and got face masks yayyyyy. My boyfriend is fun and acts tough but he loves spa nights hahaha
Went to the beach in Dorchester, MA. Picked shells, took the advice to take photos! We went home and made shepherd’s pie
Thank you SO much to everyone who helped me out in my last post. I still get freaked out but you guys help A LOT.