Why do I always feel there’s something wrong with me?

[Benn96]

Hi my name is Ben,

It’s been quite tough for me recently.. I suffer with depression & 2 months ago it got really bad.. I needed so much support and I did, I got the support I needed and 2 days ago I got signed off from my support worker & I honestly do feel so much better! I’ve just been doing things to make me happy, money has always been an issue in my life.. you no not having a job or you can’t find the right job for you.. well that’s just like me, I’ve done so many jobs that I hate and it just makes me feel even worse... i want to work with animals.. I have the qualifications todo what I want it’s just finding the job, I’m currently volunteering with a lovely lady and I help her out with her 8 horses, I wouldn’t like to ask her to start paying me cause I feel that’s just rude.

But moving on to the main bit..

So I always feel like I have something wrong with me.. like I always feel like my heart is beating to slow or sometimes to fast? I do get the odd irregular heartbeat; this happens mainly when I’m sat in the same spot for awhile or when I lay down fairly quickly.. and it occurs more frequently on a night time? So that worries me.. cause I feel like it’s a heart attack coming on! So I prepare myself for the worst in a sense.

I also find it hard to breath sometimes and go dizzy from time to time, when it comes to bed time at least once a week I get this thing where I’m sweating but I’m shivering pretty badly.. and again that also leads to dizziness and hard to breath! It’s so scary cause with everything I ‘feel’ I have wrong with me I think it’s the worst thing possible 😩

I went to the doctors last week and explained all of this and of course they said it was anxiety, I do believe them to a certain extent but I do think I have something physically wrong with me, the last time I had a blood test was around 3-4 years ago.. I know long time right.. I am scared of needles so that’s one reason why I try to avoid it but the doctors never offer me a blood test & as stupid as this sounds I’m not sure if I’m allowed to ask for a blood test?

Anyway I’m so sorry for writing so much I just want to beat this and I feel expressing this over the internet will A) do me some good reassurance wise but B) get some great advice from you guys!

So please if you have any tips on what todo in certain situations I’m all ears! Thankyou so much for reading through.

Much love

Ben❤️

[vbp123]

Hi,

I think a lot of people here feel what you feel, including myself- confused, lost, lonely with all possible physical symptoms. It is very common to feel dizzy, have heart palpitations, difficulty breathing, tingling, arms or legs etc.

Health anxiety makes us think that we have something very wrong with us.

More nervous we are - more symptoms we get. Try to find what relaxes you- meditation, sport, reading, meeting friends...Working with animals is great!!! Good luck finding paid job in this field! I think there is nothing wrong to ask the lady to pay you. We all need to pay the bills....

All the best

[Benn96 in reply to vbp123]

Thankyou so much for taking the time to reply! Yes I always feel there’s something wrong but it’s probably my mind, yes I have I can bring some income in as it will lift some weight off my shoulders cause that’s one of my main problems why I am unhappy at the moment.

[R_dR]

Hi Ben! This was me 3 months ago! I was sure something was wrong with me. Started with my heart and related symptoms. It went as far as me getting blood work done, an EKG a chest xray. It all came back normal. And after that... Because I knew nothing was wrong the symptoms started to just go away. I think obsessing over the symptoms with health anxiety makes your brain alert for just the slightest sensation and immediately act on it in flight and fright mode. Read up on health anxiety. There is some helpful you tube videos on it as well. It helped me a lot.