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[jane93p]

an nhs page brought me to this app while looking for some information on the horrific crippling anxiety I’m feeling today!! Does anyone else’s get really bad even while on medication?

[a_work_in_progress]

Hi Jean welcome you’re not alone. The grip of anxiety is awful. If someone hasn’t been through it themselves they can’t understand. I’m working through a bout of anxiety right now that I’ve had for at least 24 hours I shake I can’t think straight it’s awful. I just started taking Zoloft I am hoping it kicks in sooner than later. This site is nice because you can speak to other people that are going to the same things with you and understand.

[jane93p in reply to a_work_in_progress]

Hi yes it’s refreshing to be reminded I’m not alone. My vision is unfocused, my head is very light and I feel dizzy... I can’t remember the last time I didn’t feel dizzy it really affects me physically, not just mentally! I’ve had a week off work because of the depression and shakes etc, I’m due back on Wednesday and feel no better. My boss isn’t very understanding. She thinks going to work is enough to fix everything. Sadly it’s not.

[a_work_in_progress in reply to jane93p]

That’s awful about your boss that must be very difficult. I know about how it affects you physically too I just want to crawl into a ball and stay there

[jane93p in reply to a_work_in_progress]

I know that feeling too well! She screamed at me last week “we all have problems you know, not just you” I thought to myself brilliant, that’s gonna help me! NOT!

[a_work_in_progress in reply to jane93p]

Well I just think of karma what comes around goes around

[a_work_in_progress in reply to jane93p]

I’ve never private message with anyone but if you ever feel you need to talk I’m here

[jane93p in reply to a_work_in_progress]

Thank you very much same to you!

[Callie67]

Not to be a Debbie downer, but sometimes I feel like meds can only do so much. My health gives me a lot of anxiety/depression, so I feel like taking meds is a bandaid, you know? (Even though I do take meds and I’m not trying to say it’s like that for everyone.) You will find a lot of support on this site! It feels really good to get things off your chest and have people who can relate to what you’re going through.

[a_work_in_progress in reply to Callie67]

I totally understand what you’re saying medication is my last resort.

[jane93p in reply to Callie67]

I totally agree with you, I’ve been going to cbt therapy for months on end. I do meditation, I do so many different things! Don’t know how long I can go feeling like I feel, it’s exhausting. I feel cursed! Illness on top of illness as well for the past 5 months! It’s hard to not feel low

[Callie67 in reply to jane93p]

That’s great you’re trying other things! I totally get the exhaustion. It’s like your mind/body are constantly fighting itself. And if you’re trying to fake happiness or looking normal, that’s exhausting too. Aww I’ve felt cursed too, I’ve had issues for so long.

[a_work_in_progress in reply to Callie67]

I understand what you’re talking about I am so exhausted also from trying to look happy and be normal so that nobody sees my pain

[Callie67 in reply to a_work_in_progress]

I feel bad for anybody who feels that way! I think that’s why depressed/anxious people like being alone. You don’t have to pretend you’re happy, you can just be miserable and not bother anybody with it.

[Hidden]

I’m not on medication but I feel the same.. how long have you been on meds? I tho I I’m going to start people have told me Zoloft and lexepro do wonders

[jane93p in reply to Hidden]

I’ve been on the medication I’m on now since March, I’ve been swapped a few times onto new stuff... currently on propranolol 3 times a day, pregabalin 3 times a day and 100mg of sertraline... I don’t understand how I can be on 7 tablets a day and still feel as horrendous as I do.

[Hidden in reply to jane93p]

Well if you just started the Zoloft in March I think it’s too early for it to kick in .. what are the other meds for

[jane93p in reply to Hidden]

Propranolol for my heart palpitations, what’s Zoloft?

[jane93p in reply to Hidden]

Oh sertraline. Pregabalin is so balance something in my brain

[Hidden in reply to jane93p]

What sertikine are you on?

[jane93p in reply to Hidden]

100mg sertraline. 150 pregabalin 30mg propranolol

[a_work_in_progress]

What is an nhs anyway? Just wondering

[jane93p in reply to a_work_in_progress]

National health service

[cortisolqueen]

I am so sorry to hear of another person having anxiety. I have suffered from panic attacks and anxiety since having my first panic attack in August 2015. I honestly thought I was dying. I made my poor husband take me to the ER 10 times that first year. I was convinced I was dying each time an attack hit me. No one and I do mean no one can possibly understand what we go through unless they too suffer from it. I feel your pain and will be praying for you to get relief. When I was at my worse, I lost 35 pounds and honestly looked like I was dying. My hair was falling out, I could not sleep or eat. I finally gave into trying medication after ending up in the psych ward for 8 hours because I admitted to the ER doctor that I had thoughts of harming myself. I went from being the life of the party, always happy, and truly blessed to a shell of the person I once was. All due to a panic attack. I then began to fear having another one which of course made me have another on. It is a vicious cycle. I have gotten a 100 times better but still suffer daily. No more ER visits, thank God. My main fear fueling the anxiety now is that I fear I am going crazy. I have been reassured by every doctor I have seen that I am not going crazy and it is just the anxiety making me believe that lie. I seek reassurance way too much. I google search and ask perfect strangers if they have ever had anxiety. It is so scary what our minds can tell us. I truly think it becomes somewhat of a habit to us. I am here for you if you ever need to talk because I know EXACTLY how you are feeling.

[jane93p in reply to cortisolqueen]

Wow. That is like reading a story of myself. I’ve lost over 24 pounds in the last few months with my anxiety, I don’t know how I’m supposed to go back to work on Wednesday, I stupidly offered myself back a week earlier than I should. I’m still signed off for another week so I guess I could stay off. Then i feel like I’m hiding. I feel useless like everyone will be talking about me. I also don’t get sick pay and have a mortgage. Constant stress. My hair has thinned also. I’m on so much medication and it feels like it’s not doing anything. I’ve done cbt therapy I don’t know what else I’m meant to do now I feel lost

[cortisolqueen in reply to jane93p]

I have noticed something during this journey, every story we read could be our story. It is like every one of us suffers the same exact way. That should reassure us that is it just anxiety and nothing else but it doesn't. I have read and choose to believe that people who suffer from anxiety are very kind and intelligent people. I just wish this intelligence would allow us to let go of our fears and get back to our old lives. I honestly was one of the happiest people I knew, always smiling and just really loving life. When I was really bad, I could not even smile. It was like I had become unable to feel happiness any more. Please don't give up. Go on back to work and don't get stuck staying at home. There were times when I would get half way to work, start crying, turn around and go back home. It is a wonder I was able to keep my job. I have a really understanding boss who has been nothing but a real source of support to me. Always remember that you are not alone, this can happen to anyone. You are strong, stronger than you think. Any one who can deal with this and keep trying has an internal strength beyond what most people can ever understand.

[Hidden in reply to cortisolqueen]

Do you take meds?

[jane93p in reply to Hidden]

I’ve told you lol

[Hidden in reply to jane93p]

No not you cortisol queen

[cortisolqueen in reply to Hidden]

yes, I take Remeron, Lexapro, and a small amount of Klonopin. I have gained 30 pounds on the Remeron but I cannot get off it. When ever I try, I get the panic even worse.

[a_work_in_progress in reply to cortisolqueen]

Cortisol Yes I am also sorry to hear that someone else is going to the same thing as me. we are the same age and probably have a lot in common. I don’t want to hijack the thread but I want to let you know that I’m here if you ever need to talk. We’re all in this together hugs

[cortisolqueen in reply to a_work_in_progress]

Thanks so much, I truly appreciate your comments. Do you ever worry that it isn't anxiety and that you are going crazy. My therapist said everyone who suffers from anxiety and panic attacks fear they are losing their minds. It is just so scary, isn't it? Thanks again for your support, I am here for you as well. If I ever make it out of this mess, I am going to reach back and try to help anyone I can to get out also.

[a_work_in_progress in reply to cortisolqueen]

Cortisol

Yes I question about going crazy to myself all the time. It runs in the family. It is very scary and when I go through my bouts of panic, anxiety I try so hard to talk myself down. I think that even us that are having anxiety right now can still help others just by letting them know you’re not alone.

[cortisolqueen in reply to a_work_in_progress]

Yes, it really helps just to know you are not alone. My therapist said people who are really going crazy don't know it and that those with anxiety are too in touch with their every feeling. We are constantly trying to work our way out of this mess.

[Icanbeathis2016]

Hello welcome to the forum. Yes can definitely say it can be some very rough days with this, even without meds. I'm not on any meds and I have my bad times. I've tried meds once forn45 and quite and had really bad days then so I felt like I'd be better off having those same bad days without medication.

Wish us the best

[Hidden]

Hi Jean. Welcome to our group. We all understand and know how debilitating anxiety can be. I’m also going through a bad bout that’s gone on for a couple weeks due to a lot of stress at work and family issues. I’m 55 and have had anxiety since my early 20s. Been through every lab test, holtmonitors.

[baileyf14]

I am sorry you are going through this! Personally, I have not experienced this but I know people who have. Have you talked to your doctor about it? They may be able to get you another medication that is better for anxiety. I hope everything gets better!