Confession: I'm so consumed by anxiety that I'm not really living. I'm just existing. I don't feel pleasure or joy or hope or peace. I'm always in turmoil and unable to cope with basic life. I hate this feeling. Sadly, I want to weep but I'm so afraid it will cause a panic attack that I don't. Panic and anxiety are hell.
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Anxiety is a thief
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I feel the exact same way.
I used to be such a kick ass girl and now I’ve faded away.
No one deserves to live like this.hear if you ever need to chat x
I know exactly what you mean. It really sucks. I feel so worthless sometimes, like I don’t mean nothing in this world because i’m just sitting at home, anxious and scared. I honestly wouldn’t wish anxiety and panic attacks on my enemies, it’s so awful. I have gotten a little better over the past couple of weeks, but i’m still suck at home, scared to drive or hang out with friends. I still have some anxiety symptoms that seem like it won’t go away.
But I keep telling myself that this won’t last forever, and it won’t. I know this sucks, but keep telling yourself that you won’t be like this for long. It will get better. Find something to laugh at or with everyday; spend time with God in prayer and cry out to Him, He will hear you. Distract yourself with fun hobbies like paining, cooking/baking, or just watching a nice movie or tv show. Listen to some great music (try God Only Knows by for KING AND COUNTRY).
If you want some natural supplements to help with anxiety, i recommend Anxiety Free by Herbal Crestridge. I was crying, having severe anxiety symptoms every single day before I started taking it. After it got into my symptom (took about a week), i had stop crying all together, and my anxiety symptoms and decreased a bit. I also drink lots a water (drink at least 2 liters a day), and also try not eating a lot of bread, pasta, and sugar. I was having serious IBS as well, but once I started a gluten-free, no sugar diet, my stomach problems have gone away.
Panic and anxiety is definitely hell, but I know that it won’t take over my life forever. Just ask God for strength to make it through each day, and He will give it to you. If you want to talk, I am hear whenever you need me. @Minne87, I am hear for you as well.
There's purpose for your life. Even though there are times where the suffering seems like a lot just remember that if you're alive and still breathing God isn't done with you yet. In times where I felt like I was just existing, helping people with their battles helped me. My thought has always been that if I'm going through anxiety I have to use my experiences to help someone who's going through the same. Keep pushing!
Sometimes you have to get the "basics" back and master a few of them.
You posted you are" ALWAYS in turmoil and unable to cope with basic life".
That says to me, to go back to basics.
Shower each day, wash hair, brush teeth, make your bed, clean your room. Stick with basics, master those again.
Take basic steps.
This happens to a lot of us at one time or another, and this was the most successful way to get back in "the game".
THoughts?
Yes to everything you said! I feel the same way and I want to get past this so bad! I just keep hoping that this shall pass soon! It’s hard I just want to stay in my house not go out or do nothing because I dont want to have panic attacks anymore in public.
5 year I haven’t left my house I panic so bad I’m scared I’m going to die from anything and everything I just want it better already I cant even get out of bed with out a panic attack
Please have a listen to the Dr Claire Weekes videos on You Tube her words are wonderful and really work if you follow her advice
All the very best ☺️
I am so very sorry to hear your life is being swept away by feeling out if your control. I have always been shy, self conscious and anxious.. as long as I can remember. Social gatherings with people I don't know are being painful. This year it all came to a head when I started a new job, a dream job I didn't feel worthy of, didn't feel I would ever be able to shine at. One morning (my second week there) I just couldn't get out of the car. That was it. I was offered help, but I got home, sobbed and threw away that opportunity. So I understand how anxiety controls your life.
I had been going to a group to help with social anxiety (which also helped with ideas for general anxiety symptoms) but I even dropped out of that with 2 weeks to go. (we had to give a 5 minute speech and I still couldn't see how all this talk would actually change anything, even though I'd been trying ....
Anyway,after my new job blow out,I went to the Dr and was put on citalopram and for the first time in 12/18 months, I saw just how much I had been struggling. After 4weeks the tablets kicked in a d I felt like me more. I hadn't realised how lost I had been.
I still haven't found a job I am happy in. I have a new job starting soon (hopefully) and another interview, but I am terrified to make the RIGHT decision. I want to function again. I don't want my dream to be staying at home with coffee, cats, a dog and books. I want a life again. I want the confidence to feel able to exist amongst other humans. Just to be!
It may not sound it, but I am better than I have been. I am trying to get out there. If a job isn't right,I am not afraid to say no, this isn't for me. My whole life before I would have kept on and felt miserable and anxious, sick to my stomach hiding how I felt from everyone. I am hopeful that I will settle again. If I have hope,I am believing that you too can find it. I hope that hope will come along and light up your life. Keep taking those steps forward into the world. Be kind to yourself,set small challenges but not huge ones to beat yourself up over. Say "look what I HAVE acheived", don't dwell on the ifs, buts, maybes, should have shouldn't haves.... If you haven't had help from a GP, go talk to one. If you are in meds talk about new ones to try which may work better for you. See about talking therapy... Even putting g one foot in front of the other is a massive battle one, don't forget that. So who's in charge of your life? From where I'm sitting (next to my ex rescue dog) it's you! Well done xx
Such a helpful post. Thank you! ( I did something similar in a good job, but you said what was at the core" didn't think I deserved it", that is my core problem for almost everything)
Hiya, i know how you feel cos ive been feeling this way for years constantly moving and trying to find happiness, but theres always something or someone wants to make other peoples lifes hard, why i dont know cos we all goin thru same shit and lifes hard enough without neibors or people/society being disgusting n arrogant now, thats how i feel n that life has changed a lot from the earlier days. I enjoy simple things in life but everything seems to be so hard and constant battles with even just basic everyday life. I feel lost and trying to get to that happy place, but dont know. I just feel everyone around me is weird now at times. I would even like to maybe go n live in a different country with different culture, but sometimes its hard financially n confidence. Hope you find peace and happiness x🌼🦉
When anxiety begins it is always worse..it's new . I was 15 years old and didn't even understand what was happening to me. It took years until I was able to embrace the anxiety as part of who I am. Yes, that might go against conventional wisdom for those who want to treat it, medicate it away. Once you accept that it's going to be a part of your life for the rest of your days , believe it or not the anxiety lessens. You talk to it..ask it why it's there and how can I get you to let me calm down. Talk to it like it's someone who's a part of you. I do take meds, as it does make my life easier but it's a low dose, just takes the edge off most times. I found wishing it would go away was impossible and unrealistic. I knew I had to find a way to compromise with what was happening with my body and mind. I just want you to know that it does get better with time, it really does lessen. It might take awhile but it will ease up. You will know your triggers, you will know yourself more too. It's only a thief if you think it's stealing your life from you..but if you embrace it as part of who you are then it does change things.
Anxiety is hell on earth. I’ve been going through this for 4 years now but the last 3 months I’ve been in a constant state. I can honestly say I am in turmoil. I’ve started CBT, got Claire Weekes book and went to my GP for pills, she gave me sertaline and I start them today. I have my 3rd CBT session this week. I want to keep fighting for the me I used to be, my kids deserve there happy, fun loving mama back.
I’m back to work today for the first time in a year and I’m suffering, I nearly didn’t get out of the car. I’m just on edge watching the clock til hometime!
You are so right! Anxiety is a thief. It robs you of peace of mind, productivity, sleep, time with friends and family, etc. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. You don't mention if you are seeing a doctor or if you are taking any kind of medication. If your anxiety is caused by a chemical imbalance, there are ways to treat it. You may want to check out the following link for some information. I encourage you to reach out and get some assistance so you don't have to continue suffering. Praying for you.