I am a twin and growing up both my brother and I totally idolised our dad. He was our hero and we both aspired to be like him, be as good as him and make him proud.
My dad could deal with anything, he was a take charge man and always stepped forward, led from the front and help other.
5 years ago he passed away, aged 57... my twin brother and I were both lost, like a boat with no rudder I still had desire, self confidence, a dream to make my dad
Proud albeit without him to guide me.
10 months later my world changed forever when I was involved in my fatal accident. Since then I have battled this PTSD, anxiety and depression. I have been medically discharged from my job, and feel like I am living a different life to the one I used to live. A different life from the one I should be living. I had goals and dreams and aspirations to be a leader. To help others and to make myself and my dad proud. Now I find myself searching for some contentment in having a “good day”... not having physical symptoms of anxiety, or going out of my comfort zone and being sociable.
I don’t know. I feel lost and need direction or self worth.
I want to be what I thought I was again