To all DP sufferers

[Chala555]

Hello everybody and new subscribers. Its been a while since ive been on this. The last time i posted something was me saying that i was cured from DP. Well it came back and hit me harder. Its been a year and three months having this. Ive undergone through a lot of stages and managed to get thru it all. Only problem is now everything feels so fake. Like my past and everybody from my past didnt exist. I do have some sort of suicidal thoughts here and there but never attempted thank god even though the mental pain is unbearable at times. I started acting aggressive towards anyone that would give me a hard time. Being angry was my ground. It made me feel in control and so I'd find any excuse to get upset to stay in control. It was a horrible way of coping. Im starting to stabilize myself once again by finding a new hobby which is keeping a fish aquarium. Its something economical and the best part is it helps relieve some stress just watching them swim. It doesnt change the fact that i still feel how i feel. Im not planning on giving up and letting my mind take over me just yet. I need to tell myself I'm in charge and can get over this. To anyone suffering your DP, dont give up. You guys have strong mindsets. Keep pushing forward and find your ground. You guys can do this!!